Today's my birthday; finally managed to get to 37.
I'm impressed on how fast this year's gone...there's so many things that i wanted to do this year, yet couldn't, thanks in major part to the pandemic; however i keep going strong in the hopes of eventually doing it so.
Then there's my health...i'm fine, but last month, the news of my pancreatic failure, along with it culminating on having now diabetes as well as a grim reminder that its cause is fully unknown, really crushed me. To be told that "everything points to it being a hereditary issue" hit me really hard. I hate uncertainty. Not knowing if it'll happen again, or when to expect it happens again, scares me to no end. Dealing with remote work exhaustion, depression and now this has taken its toll on me.
I don't doubt there's people who fight much more uphill battles than i'm doing, but it's been 8 months full of tortures...i just hope to see a light at the end of this tunnel, and be able to do more things that i've proposed; finally move to my "new" (i shouldn't be saying new anymore) house, manage to be able to do more stories, drawings, actually beat my fears and post them...gather enough money (again) to travel to japan once again (and not being used as emergency medical funds)...
I shouldn't be rambling on my birthday, i guess. One thing's for sure: i'm really thankful to be alive and gotten this far, and hope to live much more. In the end, as long as i'm able to do so, i will keep going and give it my best.
Here's to many more years! 🎂🎉
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