Update and Venting

by 6strife9

Yeah been a bit since I made one of the theses but...eh I don't know. I mostly vent on other places now but I feel like yall need to know what's up. For those that read this stuff anyway.

Last week I was in a lot of pain and missed out on a week's worth of work. Before the big pain, I went to the Dr to get an endoscopy to see what has been causing me lots of pain over on and off. I got some iration of the lower intestine but they do not think that's what has been causing me pain. They think it was my gallbladder. Which kind of ticks me off since I've been to a few Drs about this pain and one said it was my gallbladder and the other said it wasn't and it was ulcers. Now I owe over a thousand dollars on top of the 600$ from my last ER visit last year. Now they are, I am assuming, going to take out my gallbladder which is going to be even more money I owe.

Now to the less fun part and that's me hating myself. God, I REALLY hate myself. Like there is nothing good about my self. My looks my job my hobbies. I even suck at art. No idea why anyone looks at my shitty doodles and faves it. my last upload was a fucking mistake and a mess. Don't know why I thought I could pull off the perspective. Plus all the other mistakes.

Oh and how dumb and bad, at least I think it's bad but what do I know they are getting paid for it so a lot of people seem to like it, gets to me. eh, probably cuz I am insecure about the topic. Which is abuse, though that's not what they are going for it's what I interpret