and as it turns out The wedding that I stood my ground on having instead of eloping like my bride wanted to id turning into a unpleasant experience over all. The stress has made my beloved unhappy, none of the family who I invited, the main reason I insisted on having a wedding ceremony are coming ether because of the BS called Chines flue or because of other things.
Im not happy because I have failed to please anyone with my decision and i derive my sense of self worth from what others think and feel. My fiance isn't happy, my parents aren't happy if any of you actualy watch me for what i produce im sure your not happy ( PS if your looking for my of my writing im on fa https://www.furaffinity.net/user/noxvulpes/ )
