New decade, new mood, & a true new start... so where & how do I begin. Hmmm, well I guess I should say that first acknowledged that this year was all about learning. Especially about one's trueself, growing spiritually, physically, mentally, & with patience(still figuring that part out sadly). So after going through the mental rollercoaster with depression, living experience for the best yet to the worst (cons, trips, & festivities of that sort losing more then just a shit ton of money), confidence building yet destroying (getting out of being anti-social but depression destroying it), loneliness (no sexual intimacy or dates in 3 years) impatience (going quick to anger), GREAT financial loss (losing my 2 jobs because of yet again, depression), & I dare even say jealousy (seeing all the happy people). Pretty much breaking my soul in a way on the edge of at failing at a dangerous attempt on my life. Seeing the right things at the end of the year, reading up on new topics to greatly improve, & succeeding in fields I've never gave a second glance to. Seeing that this might be a bridge to travel across now, needing to make my moves. Getting older & more alert to my surroundings not failing to capitalize on things I've been letting pass me by out of the thought of fear. Time to man up & seize the day/moment. Though I ask myself "why am I writing this?" not only to say silently, but openly to the world little by little. SO, with all these words possibly meaning nothing (because I'm dead tired writing this & have to be up at work in just 3-2 hours, insomnia's a bitch), I will have to say this new year will bring nothing BUT the best to not just myself but to all mentally, physically, & spiritually that are going through the rings of hell as I once did only to brought to the absolute best. Happy New year in just 6 days. Welcome brothers & sisters to New Beginnings to the silvers, golds, & all the riches to our new lives, so let's start & prepare now!
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