So I was just painfully reminded that I honestly mean very little to this family to the point that if I ask for gas money or for grocery money that I'm asking for way too much.
I have a pack of tea and three tv dinners that's supposed to last me the week. I don't have gas money to get to school unless I use what little bill money I've managed to save.
So I guess... I'll have to resort to begging. lol
If you guys feel generous at all, I need to make at least 80$ a week to cover grocery and gas costs in case my family, after arguing all morning, changes their mind (Which they always do).
If you could just - Ko-Fi me, or even just donate through paypal or something, even if it's just like, 5$ any little bit helps. I'm sitting here in my room, trying to decide if I want to eat a piece of bread for breakfast, or just drink a bunch of water because I don't really have any food that I, as a diabetic, can eat.
I understand my family is struggling financially on their own because of frivolous spending on my grandmother's idiotic part, and my situation with my mother is really horrible and most of you are aware of that, but I don't really know what else to do.
Commissions are super scarce and I'm running out of options. School keeps me from getting a job that'll physically impair me even worse than what I have now (I'm lucky if I can stand upright, still, for more than 50 minutes without going into excruciating pain) and even then those jobs aren't hiring for the hours that I need to make it worth the drive into town.
I'm at the end of my rope - I've tried selling my art, selling my characters, doing a lot and just... Nothing.
I need help and I hate asking. Mainly because I feel I'm not worth the effort or the time - most don't read these journals or care about my financial situation unless I compensate with 10xs more than what I'm given and I'm really really struggling to make end's meet.
If you guys could even spread the word - hell even about commissions if you can't donate, I don't care. My commissions are here and here so it's not like I'm begging for free shit, I want to work for it, I need to work for it as donations always made me feel super skeevy but I just ... Need help. I really and truly need your help to make it or else I just... Don't. I don't own anything worth selling that's more than just 7-8 dollars and I'm unable to spend the gas money to go and sell it.
