It's been a while since I've drawn. Almost four months or so. Already a third of the year without drawing any new content and I apologize to everyone about that.
As some of you may know, I am currently enrolled into college where I attend school full-time. Last semester, I took eighteen hours, which was a big mistake honestly. I barely survived. That semester drained me so much that I had to drop from fifteen to twelve hours this semester. My depression has gotten worse since then. I've been feeling more worthless and less valuable. A couple of weeks ago, I was sure that I was going to take my own life. I vented to my friend that night after having an emotional breakdown. I felt so low that night, so worthless. I knew that me not existing anymore wouldn't have mattered to a lot of people. I wanted to stop hurting. I wanted to stop breathing. I have cried so many nights, feeling sorry for myself and not wanting to live my life anymore. I stopped responding to his messages and tried to get some sleep that night because I had classes the next morning. At five in the morning, the police came to my room, telling me that someone called them saying that I was going to hurt myself. They turned the lights on, searched my room a bit, and I had to convince them that I did not consume any pills. Ever since then, I've deactivated my Twitter because I didn't want anyone to have to see my ventings anymore (since I spoke to that friend on Twitter). I plan on returning soon. Probably next week or so.
I've still been feeling really low about myself. I actually ended up crying last night because I felt like shit for not being able to complete an assignment for class. It also doesn't help that my family is currently fighting each other, putting me in an awkward, emotional position. Also, my grandfather went to the hospital this week. Just so much has been going on this semester. Today was my last day of classes before Spring Break, which I desperately need. I have all of next week off, but I'm going home to check in with my dad and to see if I can possibly visit my grandfather in the hospital. Maybe he will come back while I am home. I can only hope and pray that he will make a speedy recovery.
On a lighter note, I do have some exciting news. After talking to
have both agreed to let me have partial ownership of their Patreon page! I've already been making images for them (the four pin-up sets I would post each month), but I have more a flexible schedule to post for their Patreon, so I will still be making the same content. I really appreciate
for their love and support, it means so much to me. Their patience has been so reassuring and I hope not to let them down. I've already made a poll on Patreon to see what I should post for this month and the results are in. To see what the winning picture is, you should definitely considering supporting our page: https://www.patreon.com/teamacorn
I would like to start posting on here again. I will try to post more pictures (and work on commissions) next week. I'm so sorry to keep everyone waiting for so long. I appreciate all of your patience and for those of you who are mad at me or who are tired of waiting, then I would like to personally apologize to you all. I'm so sorry my depression has been holding me back and I will try to post more content next week.
Anyway, thank you guys for reading and I hope you guys have a great day/evening.