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Continuing the fight

Since I'm feeling totally out of sync with my usual patterns I'm just going to write something blunt and open.

“ You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.” – Maya Angelou




Dear furries near and far,

Umm...hi I'm Meiko but you probably don't care too much about that. To many of you I'm just another face in the crowd, just another fur among you all. I have no art skills and all I can to is write but you really don't care about that either. The fact that I just told you what I can do probably has you thinking I'm not someone worth your time. But what if I was to tell you that I once cared for a woman thrown out of her house for two weeks before finally convincing her to go back home where she got her life in order? What if I told you I paid the rent of a friend for two years who would have gladly lived on the streets because he didn't want to live with his mom when his dad died? What if I told you I've been falsely accused things and suffered months of torture yet still remain sweet and loving? What if I told you I faced life challenges with a arm always tied behind my back and never gave up when things seemed hopeless? What if I told you I had everything stripped away from me because someone told people I was up to no good only to be proven innocent yet forgive the person who did the evil to me? What if I told you that through it all I still call this fandom home despite the lack of acknowledgement, appreciation or care?

What if I told you I've been scared by five lovers and yet still had the courage to find love? What if I told you I became someone's calf who lived across the country and only saw them once but still trusts them with my life? What if I told you I fell in love with someone and they got hurt but still loved me after? What if I told you that when I hurt that person I vowed never to do it again and still hold that promise two years later and still going? What if I told you I was given a choice between becoming a devout christian or choosing to continue my path in the furry community? What if I told you I decided to be a life long furry but balance furry life and real life? What if I told you I've been threatened to be put away for who my friends are?

What I don't have in artistic ability I make up for in my ability to be a person, a light, a battleship in a world that seems to be bent on feeding off of its on negative energy. I have people in my life who support me in my adventures. People like calafin, naketa, syrios, sophiewolfheart, arcnova, tobiasvale, rathkinstealthwing and many many more. I can make people smile, I can cover wounds, I can guide someone away from the dark void of death. I can help and be there for many simply by being around.

But often I feel I don't matter, I'm just a small speck in the grand view of things. Over shadowed by famous furs like Kage, Alkali, Xander and many others. I've had to settle for the backstage and the shadows. It hurts me to live like this but I do it because its all I know, its all I can accomplish. Yet, there is a certain amount of peace I have with this life. I don't need the spotlight to be happy. I don't need to have fan boys and girls screaming my name like a famous rock star or actor. What I have to keep me happy I have had all along. Good friends, a loving fur family and good company. Love, comfort, protection and peace. In a world where personal attacks and social justice warriors are on the prowl for their next victims, I have a safe harbor that is well defended from these evils.

All I ask of this community is to give me a chance to show you who I am as a person. If you don't believe me by what you see then by all means speak to those who know me best. Talk to them and see what they say, listen to their testimony and their stories. We all have something to give and give back.


The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.

— Friedrich Nietzsche

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