ufffff..... hmmmmmm....... i dont know how to start this journal to be honest -w-; since i mostlly dont like to talk about personal things that might doesnt care a shit to most of you guys ^^; , anyways this is like a .... hmmm..... ahhhh... suck it -w-*
This 2017 was.... probabbly my best year in this place to be honest ^^ amazing considering the fact that at the beggining of 2017 everything was fuck up from my side, i haved to quick out from my college and my desingner carrer due to economy problems, i haved to work on a store but still, my monthlly earnings where really low and i barelly could bring some food to the table, my mother haved to get retired from her teaching job since her payment was very miserable, too much work for little cash, besides, that the age is starting to hit her -w- leaving only me and my big sister in charge on keep our house standing, that was went i decided to say "fuck this" i open up my commissions and tecnically ask for help, since that moment..... wow! things really changed up for the good ^^ and tecnically i was earning 3 times the minumun salarial payment on a regular job, heck! even a professional person that has graduated from an university in Venezuela wouldnt earn the same amount of money that i have been making the whole year..... it was a very overwhelming and good feeling, i manage to make more friends and meet alot of more people that got interested in my art style and commissioned me alot of things ^^ helping me out with my economical condition, heck! even i manage to buy myself a freaking ps4! 0w0
Althought....... not everything is roses sadly -w-; i have descovered an awfull truth that ..... the only way for me to survive in this world is making commissions, which.... i dunno.... is like a bittersweat feeling, dont get me wrong, i love working on them, but..... ehhh.... is the only thing that calls the attention of the people, and due to this i wasnt able to draw my own characters and work on my own projects, cuz i have put all my energy on the commssions cuz... lets be honest, people that pays me are the ones that actually buys my food for keep me living so i have to pay more attention to them than to myself. Althought...... this was not something 100% bad, cuz i actually started to improve alot in my drawing skills with every commission that i have been making.
Dispice of have survived a year in Venezuela..... i think that is time to leave this place... things are getting very awfully bad, the super markets and small markets are running out of food and constantlly theres people making riots in the markets cuz they cant food or everything is expensive for them, sure, i have money, but for what is that for if theres no food to buy with it?? and not to mention that the services in this country like water, light even the internet are the worst... seriouslly, the most fastest internet i have is 300KB/s and only went is the 3:00 AM of the morning where is where i submit my drawings, i have been trying to download a fucking update for the CoD game that i got during the last 5 freaking days and the updates weights 5GB!
Look..... this is depressing... so in order to get out of here, my sister will travel to Colombia the next year and see if she can find work over there, despice of myself, she is a professional with all her carrer degree and graduated with honors, so finding a job of her profession over there should be something not so difficult as here, and for myself, i will have to wait until she manage to stablish over there so i can travel a couple of times and see if i can send things like my ps4, my scanner and slowy moving on to Colombia so i can continue my "drawing profession" over there.
Althought..... theres a few things that i have to consider, sure, living here is not as expensived as living in other place like Argentina, Colombia, Chile even Mexico, i mean.... normally i can survive for a half month with only 25$ all thanks to huge inflation and the price comparation with the Dollar to the Bolivar (our poor national coin) so...... if i want to move on to another place, i need to earn even more money that i am making monthlly, which it means do more commissions.... i only have them opened on DA but i was starting to consider to open them on my other accounts like FA and Inkbunny, also change a bit the price of my commissions and high them up a little bit, i allways try to put a fair price, and i am aware that my art style might not be the best thing in the website, but seriouslly, it piss me off seeing that people that has inferior skills than mine and they make commissions of 50$ and people buys them!! of course, this doesnt mean that suddenlly i will put my commissions to that price -w-; i dont want to lose the costumers that i allready have ;3;
Well, also i manage to open a Patreon account this year, but i feel like i havent gived a propper use.... on the next year by January i will make some changes on Patreon, actually i am learning on how make HD pics and even Wallpapers, so...... i think that i will put more tiers, maybe 3 well, lets see how this goes -w-
In 2018 i was planning to not only make commissions but also make a couple of comics and even so i started to work on some scripts for them with some of my friends that are helping me out... but the true is that..... as long as i live in Venezuela, i will not be able to do nothing of those, i mean, we are talking about a situation of dispice of how much money you have, theres barelly food, and theres not anykind tools for making digital art, like a Wacom Tablet, the one i have was a gift from my Father and he was able to buy it in U.S not here >->* what will happend if my laptop decides to die or my tablet starts to have malfuntions and i cant find a replacement for those??
Currentlly i am working on my list of commissions that i have, but in the next year i will change my prices and open up my commissions in other places, i will have to gather all the money that i have if i want to leave this place...
Well.... thats all i guess..... feel free to comment if you want ^^ i like to heard opinions -3-
See ya on the 2018 folks and happy end of the year XD
