My wife and I recently separated, it was a traumatic time for me. I slowly got ideations of suicide and eventually started dry frying my dad's guns on my head.
I almost loaded the gun before pulling the trigger about a week ago and I was talking to my chosen mother, she called the cops and they stormed in and took me away willingly to the ER.
From there I was voulanterily admitted to the behavioral health unit at the hospital. I spent 6 days there and got proper treatment after being untreated most of my life.
The meds they put me on are working like a miracle. I am experiencing at times true happiness, peace, serenity and a host of other positive emotions that I don't think I ever truly understood before.
It's still very difficult to cope at times and I struggle daily, but I am finally able to cope and I don't feel dependent on sex or cannibis to get through the day and it doesn't cause suffering not having access to sex.
I am still lonely, I still miss sex and all my other problems are still there but it's no longer overwhelming.
I feel like I can live life without pain one day and the pain I feel now feels much more appropriate and is more of a dull ache instead of a thousand razor blades rattling around in my head.
I have hope and its not just on an intellectual level. I want to see my future and help build it.
Feel free to poke me for any reason and if you are in New Hampshire and know anyone who needs a place like where I was I can't recommend the place I was staying enough.
Parkview medical center in derry NH, I am also setup with the Center For Life Management and recommend them as well, they help with services and can help with rent and much more.
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13 Nov 2017 11:01 CET
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