As far as I known, I have been a inspiring artist to strive on getting to do my own art, to make something of myself, to prove that I can do something with my life because no one was ever there for me when I was growing up.
my foster family kicked me out, my blood relatives don't want anything to do with me because I am different, close friends irl moved out the state so they can have a better lifestyle which I wish I went with them.....
who I though I could call a mature close friend is now kicking me out of the house because apparently I am the cause of his health worsening, not because I have a debt of $1000+ that I been trying to work with, not because rent, not because of cleaning and caring, but because of his health which I was never told of until now.
I have been telling you about my living conditions from the beginning I became a artist, I have been trying to keep it real with all of you and I have been doing what I can to provdide, i have been paying off every single commission I have had EVER, I tried being there for everyone that I consider a close friend, but this is ridiculous this is uncanny not only that but unjustified.....
I have had many jobs, none of them I have quitted, I have been working to the point to where I was promised full-time, the I come and find out I get part-time hours, then after awhile I get nothing on my next schedule and then being told I am on call... now that I dont have a accual job (what ever the hell that means) I work freelance for you guys, and which you guys have helped me pay rent ALOT, and I am really grateful for that I really am, but as of the moment yes I am in dire need of help, ME AND MY FIANCE.
I pay off rent along with her help and we pay it off asap, for the previous 8 months 2 of them we were late and we did pay it off accordingly to not have my debt rise.... but as of the fact WE PAID IN FULL ALL RENT THAT WAS NEEDED which was 300 dollars, and i have been late on rent before the fact yes, but I went out of my way to pay for both if I could.
so what I have been told is I am not being trusted with the next incomming rent increase which is 400 dollars as he is supposed to put us on a lease too, now with that said, we are not on the lease so there is no guaranteed rent to be paid I was told to pay 200, because I was living in a small room at the time, then 300 now that I am upstairs, now the least will be in the mix I will need to pay 400 dollars, now at the same time during the whole fallout with me and Quartz last month I was told under Matt's okay that she can come back even though he didn't want her back in the first place because of what all had happened, she is a changed lady and wants to better herself, so because of this he wants us to clean, tend, and be on our best behavior which we HAVE DONE as SOOOOON as she got here.... and she understood where he was coming from too so there is that.
I have been working in commissions as hard as I could have been so i can pay off rent, and she has been trying to get back on track as of recent so she can help pay rent as well the right way, now we don't know what to do.... and all I have to blame in all this is myself because I brought her into this fucked up mess.....
all I wanted was for us to work hard, have a following, keep working hard and have a place for the both of us... now we cant even do that because of whats going on.....
I love you guys for helping me, and those who have been helping not just me but her too ... but as of the current moment we are in danger and in a grim one at that, we do not have a place to stay within the next month and we surely do not want to stay here anymore now that we see the true colors of whats really going on, our opinions dont matter here and no matter how hard we work we cant come to a agreement that whats done is done and your doing your best in the house so you can stay, so not only I am paying rent but I am paying rent when I am not even on the FUCKING LEASE.....
mind you I am respectful and I understand that his health is bad, which he does talk to me on occasion about what happen at his recent doctor visits, and I understand and reason with him.... but as of late I don't think he cares about us like he says he does, he is basically taking our good efforts and we basically dont have anything in return from him.
this all started mind you today where I had to find out all this from him when apperently the bedbug problem that we thought was taken care of and ended has been gone now, we cleaned my room countless times and I even have my own diatomatus earth so I can take care of the problem myself with out worrying anyone but because of miscommunication and one bite from a bedbug downstairs I am to be fully blamed even though, 1 I never brought them in the first place, 2 when I told them about it they told me to try to constantly clean my room so they will go away, which in the confusion I really think this is being blown way out of proportion.
and well now that that has happened yea we are being accused for some bullshit, and we basically have no where to go, but Quartz has family that can help us, not only help us but can help us get a house down in north carolina.... so with in my power I will try to get money for that, I need to save for a bus ticket, I need to save for the house itself and save for the rent of the house next, which in all came out to be 1000 dollars in all, food and other necessities I will try to continue working on commissions and hopefully work on getting me a part-time job down there which will help us sustain a livable condition down there.....
so please if you want to help donate or help me get some commissions in...
--Edit-- (go fund me take out a good sum of money you can send money there but it would be most effective to send to paypal directly)
I hope this works out for you. I know how it feels to be crushed into those dark corners of life crisis. It isn't a normal pain or a phobic fear. It's a heart pounding acceptance of the fact you can become nothing at any moment. If you have a religion, pray, but other then that, keep working! I've seen what you can do. You got what it takes <3
I hope this works out for you. I know how it feels to be crushed into those dark corners of life cri
I had been in a situation such as this before... Be strong and have faith, friend. You and your fiance will get through this! You have many to support you and I am one of them! ^_^
I had been in a situation such as this before... Be strong and have faith, friend. You and your fian
