So, fair warning, this could go very far off the deep end, but I'm going to at least try to edit it a little. Effectively, I want to get something off my chest, and these are my honest thoughts.
I'm transgender, but I fear the social justice circles far more than I fear even the transphobes in my own family. At least they're up-front and just choose to reject me. If I were to step “too far out of line” with certain people who are supposed to be trans-allies, some of them would outright try to ruin my life because “YOU SAID SOMETHING WE DON'T LIKE!"
Seriously, I identify myself as “hermaphrodite”, yet get told it's a racial slur because “people” said so. (HINT: It's not!) I've been told that even misspelling someone's pronouns before I even know them is rude. I've been told using “shi” and “hir” is insulting. I've been told using an actual Japanese word, futanari, is rude—not by Japanese natives themselves, but by fucking ENGLISH-SPEAKING AMERICANS.
Hell, I've even been told that my conlang for a fucking fictional race is sexist because it doesn't even acknowledge sex or gender, just the physical features. Well, no FUCKING SHIT, Sherlock. That's kinda the point of a descriptive language.
I've effectively given up RPing outside of a select few people whom I know won't suddenly go batshit on me for the smallest thing, but seeing this utter bullshit has left me with anxiety regarding my stories. I'm scared shitless that the wrong person will read a story, grab a mob from Twitter, Tumblr, or otherwise, and unapologetically assault me because of it. Most of these people don't give a shit about who they hurt, because they feel justified in doing it!
This took two of the things I love most—writing and web design—and gave me ANXIETY over even STARTING on a project.
I used to love chatting with people on Twitter, but now it's a convoluted mess of drama and bullshit. I loved being a YouTuber, but that turned into the same thing.
And above all, it's ALWAYS ENGLISH-SPEAKING ELITIST SOCIAL JUSTICE PEOPLE who seem to cause this. Yeah, I was born a “white male”. I grew up with parents who care about me, but like hell I'm going to tell my remaining two parents that I'm trans. I'd rather not leave my mates and I homeless. And yet, I would trust them far more than most trans-allies. That says something about how that movement makes me feel.
I've effectively grown tired of the abuse that people of the internet fling out at each other. It's drained me of my motivation to do what I normally enjoy, and that should not be acceptable.
And before someone comes up with "lol just block", remember that it's easy enough to block a couple of transphobic assholes and remain happy. It's far more difficult to block a few vindictive assholes who will gladly unleash hellspawn mobs on your life without pause.
So to those who are part of this movement, next time you consider ripping into someone for “using the wrong pronouns”, remember that what you say can truly hurt others. This includes a trans-lady who just wants to enjoy writing stupid fiction without being torn a new one for saying one wrong thing.
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