It never gets scary until you hit a certain point of life when you realized that you are on your path now.
It 'sounds' scary when you are walking with your parents and they say that in the future you have to be on your own.
Every rational decision counts. Every wrong step puts you backward. Every step you makes are constructing the path you will be moving on to.
You never thought that you require this much faith to move yourself.
It scares the shit out of me to think that every single hour I spend after this will be for my own, since it is my own actions, and for every rational decision I make, it counts as the future.
My parents are not dead. It's just... I wanted to take it up on my throat. I wanted to breath the essence of living. And when I first smelt it, it wasn't really pretty.
But hey, the solution is really simple, still.
Just do it.
It's not a matter of can or not. Just you need to keep your steps forward. Instead of worrying all about the wrong steps, since whether or not you'll still have to move on.
I don't want to waste my time.
And I don't wish to see others waste their time, too.
When you were teenager, you worry about how you look, how you socialize, how you think that sex is an exciting part in your life.
When you are an adult, things get so different... too different that it's like when you adjust from being a child to a teenager. It just gets so much bigger.
Gaming is great, laughing out loud everyday is perfect. Then you've gotta make yourself a living out of something. We all have times that we want and we don't want.
It scares the shit out of me and it drives me high at the same time. lol It's a weird feeling to get all hyped up and scared at the same time.
It's fun to live. <3
7 years, 4 months ago
27 Nov 2011 21:36 CET