You know, after all of the things that I've dealt with, there's always one thing to rely on. That one thing is something that you cherish from the get go that has changed your life. Whatever that event should be, it should always have that special moment that you know within you that no matter what happens it will bring a smile to you. A sense of accomplishment and a reminder why you've decided to become who you are and what to do from then on. For me, that has always been Midwest FurFest. Many of times that I've been at the convention there's always something that leave a "mark" that will always be remembered. Even if it's a bitter accomplishment, it has been positive for me throughout the years.
From being yelled at for swinging a plastic sword and rolling a giant yarnball in '07 and nearly being put out into the street without knowing in '08 there was always a positive in those moments. This year was no different. But this year around is the subject of change. I look back to the time that I was a newbie anime catboy in the furry fandom with a giant bell and gotten to know a lot of local furs throughout the months ahead. As I grew older, I've dealt with so many annoying and serious obstacles that would normally breakdown, cripple, and crush someone's spirit when they are on their own. I'm fortunate not only to have those beside me, but having a positive attitude during those rough times at the end of the day. But I'll explain this issue in a form of a question. "Are you still that same person you were when you we're younger?"
Now that question my be invalid depending on age. But it shocked me heavily to know that some of you're old friends can change from who they once were to something completely different. Not by appearance, or looks, but by attitude. Sure I have a few fellow furs that has change their outlook completely for their own reasons. But at least they've explained why they've chose that decision and I respect them for that. Unfortunately others that were kept in the dark, and in a blink of an eye they act towards you now in a way that you would never expect. I hate experiencing that first hand, but hate it even more if it were done to those I care about.
All in all, MFF has that feeling that says "Hey! This is who you are to yourself and others." And that feeling has never left. Hell, it's never left at the time of going to Anime Central and having MFF located in the same place secured that feeling indefinitely. I love the fact that because of that I've been getting more compliments and talking to new furs at the conventions that I go to. Sure I may be broke with no job and getting help from my roommates as we continue through the years of a poor economy at the same time being banned and being untrusted from a populated site a year ago over a speculation. Yet I'm still being respected and known throughout the fandom. How? Just being my silly "random black man" feline self with my own ideas. I don't need a thousand badges or a smexy fursuit to accomplish that....
But it would help :P
Nevertheless, I'm happy for who I am and content living the way I am. Even if it's not to other furry's standards or anybody's standards by that matter.
*Hunting for con pics*
6 years, 9 months ago
22 Nov 2011 20:09 CET