Ok I may be shooting myself in the foot with some of this but I feel it must be said. This is mostly to my new followers. If you ever wonder why I’m not more active at my usual haunts or if I go silent for a while or why I don’t post art so much is a myriad of reasons to be honest.
The main one’s being that I’m a mom, so whatever comes up with my Son is dealt with first. Be it him needing me to get something, going to doctors appointments and other little things that pop up when you’re a parent to a 5-6 year old child with SPD and Bad Anxiety.
I also help care for my disabled grandmother, she’s bed ridden because a surgery went wrong and she lost the use of her legs. I’m the only one in the house who’s is strong enough to lift her as my mother has a bad back. So, I’m the one who is usually loading and unloading her into the van and running her to her appointments when my dad isn’t home.
I don’t really have a “job” (even though I’ve been trying to make art and prop making my career) but I’m constantly getting called to help my family with things because I’m usually the only one “available”. So my default title is Gopher/Handyman.
I don’t mind cause it’s my family and I love them but it does get in the way of things I wish to do for myself. I’m usually worn out from grunt work and because I myself have bad anxiety, my nerves are shot as well. So if I’ve had a particularly long day I’m usually a frazzled mess until I get a break to zone out and calm down.
Another reason I’m so quiet is that I’m mostly a listener, I don’t really feel I have a need to speak unless it’s important or I feel it should be said. (I’m kinda the opposite if you get me excited about something though lol) I prefer to ghost and lurk a good bit of the time online because it’s quieter and I like to see and hear how my friends are doing. If they’re happy it makes me happy.
I do get lonely though and try to speak but I’m not the best with words so I tend to give short answers and I feel that the other person may think I’m being short with them or they’re bothering me. That’s not the case at all, please if you wish to talk to me don’t be afraid to do so! I’m an awkward momma ghost vixen but I love listening to people’s stories and what knowledge they wish to share! I may be silent for a bit but it’s usually because I’ve been called and had to jump up in a hurry, not because I don’t want to talk to you.
I hope this clears up some stuff, if you have questions please ask, I want to make things as clear as possible ^w^
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18 Oct 2015 23:29 CEST
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