Tomorrow morning I'm going to be leaving to my grandmas and stay there for a few days or through the holidays.
Today my family went to a hockey game after church (I actually went with them to church for the first time since October), and while I got along fine with my mum and sisters, me not shutting up the whole time annoyed my dad. On the way back, we got in an agruement and I snapped at him (I.e. I shouted "okay!" at him when he ignored what I was telling him). When we got home and I changed out of my winter clothes, he knocked in my door before telling me he was taking it away as punishment for being disrespectful to him and my family.
This is the last straw. This is not about me being disrespectful, this is about me not allowing him to have control over me, and removing my door is his way of stripping privacy from me and reminding me that I am his 19 year old step son who doesn't have a job. He's upset that I'm still living in his house when his family kicked him out at 16 for knocking up his first wife, as well as the fact that he had been fired for more jobs at my age than I've had interviews, and that I'm in college when he dropped out by my age. Most importantly, he's not happy that I nolonger try to give him all my respect like I did when I was younger. I gave up trying to be respectful when he used to think I was a pussy and immature for trying to be a good son. When I tried acting mature and acting on my own, he called me a smartass.
I know its the holidays and its a terrible thing to leave my family now, but my dad decided to "remind me whose house I live in" so close to the holidays. I'd feel bad for leaving my mum, but she didn't even stand up for me and all I do for them around the house, or how my dad belittles me because he can. I'll just spend the next few days at my grandma's helping her clean and manage her house during Christmas and while she has her last Chemotherapy treatment.
I'll probably see about dropping my classes for next semester and take a desperate full time job so I can either pay my grandma rent or get a studio apartment and some storage.
P.S. its not my dad's fucking house. My mum bought it before he married her, and he's as much the head of our house as I am a renter. He's more a man child who got lucky than anything else.
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10 years, 4 months ago
23 Dec 2013 06:42 CET
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