I'm at a coffee shop typing this, so I'm sorry for any errors.
Later this week, I'll be getting internet at my house/main computer, so all work will either be delivered, or for customers whose work I did not do as they'd wanted a refund way back in August, refund schedules will be made/pm'd and a few paid immediately in full.
As for my explanation for everything that's happened with commissions, it was a case of no income, using art to GET income to live, and getting heavily overwhelmed with keeping up with bills/higher and higher ques. I did it to myself, I'm not blaming any customers whatsoever, and appreciate the patience of many thus far.
As for the future, once this batch is sent off later this week, I'll be putting all commissions on pause. I have more important things I have to worry about right now, and getting myself wrapped up in another large que is not conducive to that.
I was highly unprofessional in both my wait times/manner of dealing with all of this because I got stressed/overwhelmed. I'm taking measures for this not to happen in the future. First and foremost, I'm making a continually updated visual que, via Trello (here:: https://trello.com/phaet), and am moving ALL website names to Phaet/phae_et (some variation of Phaet) so I have a unified screen name instead of a different one for every website I'm on, an issue I had before and was in the process of rectifying.
I'm not abandoning accounts by any means (especially considering everyone will be receiving work/refunds this week), I was just tired of having a billion and one screennames with no unified 'front' on every website. This was misunderstood by many people as I couldn't log into my main heml0cke account on IB to link to the new one at the time.
For quite some time, outside of streams here and there (where I will not fall into the old trap that helped get me here, if I cannot finish your piece in one sitting, I will simply refund/finish your project, contacting you via PM on a time we can stream together and finish the transaction) I will ONLY be doing request art on a blog I'm doing just because I enjoy drawing it.
I will see you again later this week and next with dropoffs/refunds. To those whom I am making refunds to, I will contact those specificially whom I need to work out a payment plan with, as I cannot refund everyone all at once but DO want to settle all accounts.
Whatever you may think of me from this point on, I'm focusing on bettering myself, and making both personal and professional decisions more wisely. I have NEVER taken commissions with no intention of delivering work, contrary to what others have said (one of which whose ire with me stems almost completely from a very personal falling out we had). I care very much about all the people who have spoken out against me, and I am not saying they're stating things that are untrue. I'm happy to own up to my shortcomings and unprofessionalism/cowardice/anxiety dealing with all of this. Wether those people whom are reading this and know who they are wish to speak to me again in the future is their own decision, I realize (and even agree) that SOME relationships were just too strained in the first place and this last event is the straw that broke BOTH of our backs with one another.
Either way, I'm done hiding and procrastinating on dealing with this. Either people will respect my decision to try and move forward, or they will have nothing else to do with me (both professionally and personally). I literally cannot do anything else besides make good on what I already have been promising everyone for weeks/months, and continuing to let my actions/progress speak louder than my words at this point. I hope this finds you all well, and everyone is happy, safe, and healthy!
I'm sorry that things went the way that they did for you, truly. I understand life getting in the way of things, and commitments not being delivered upon. I DO hope that you keep working on your art, and if you get to the point where you can take commissions again, then good. You're a fantastic artist, otherwise I wouldn't have commissioned you. Keep your head up, and learn from this experience and move forward. Good luck, Hun!
I'm sorry that things went the way that they did for you, truly. I understand life getting in the wa
I applaud your pledge to take steps to improve. And I find your art style appealing and want to see more either from your own personal pieces, requests others make or even my own. I personally bear no ill will towards you despite my frustration with the situation. Once I receive from you what I paid for and you work towards taking control of your commitments and fulfilling them on time, perhaps I'll consider being a customer again. Please do not let the commitment you make on this journal fall through.
I applaud your pledge to take steps to improve. And I find your art style appealing and want to see
