In recent events I been in a car crash, I been fighting with my parents, and even fainted in one instance. Though the latter was because I was on strong painkillers for my elbow I broke. Though this j...
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First Off Please, please, please use my artist nickname. Even in face to face conversation. I realize most may not want to for religious reasons. In which case I let it pass. However, my name, "Lily," has to do with a deep spiritual symbolism.
I would like this nickname to really catch on. Via both the art forums and face-2-face conversation. As of Monday Setember 11, 2023 I will be asking my closer friendships to use this nickname where possible. This InkBunny account will also be shared with friends. Basically to provide them full explanation of my choice on this alias.
Introduction Most know these key phrases by heart perhaps not intending to. I have the same introduction even in face to face life. I am an artist, writer, and DIY musician. I am a Christian, Babyfur (Math 18:1 thru 3), and a Tulpamancer (Joel 2:28 thru 32). Its worth noting my title is and phrases are only that. They describe me, but they do not own me. Instead they were identified in scripture through Christ.
In life I use child like or regressive strategies for a therapeutic coping strategy. I don't live by them, but they do help when I can't. I struggle with anxiety and depression at times. Regression does not have to reach early ages. It can be as simple as remembering a moment while I was in youth church. My state of mind and understanding less then that of today. The idea is to be a mere child content and teachable. The adage goes, "You can't teach an old dog new tricks." Thankfully I am not a dog and as I am writing this I am not old physically.
With imagination its very similar. While my visions are created under severe anxiety or long enduring depression I find them a place to start. At least to really identify what I am struggling with. I can escape them and even limit their influence on me. Which is why the regressive strategy is so useful to me. With scripture it becomes very powerful. If added the holy spirit, "pacifier of human souls," anything is possible. All things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians)
I often times trigger this response intentionally. In sermons this can be helpful for staying in the room. People see I can multitask, but this is not really the case. Even a computer does not multitask, but instead rotate among tasks after a line is executed. After a single second it done nearly 4 million lines among all the tasks it has. In the same way while it may be slower I to rotate so I can make connections and create infrences. As a result I have an illustration to my process of listening.
Rumors or Common Misunderstandings Some people say I am making myself out to be prodigal living. My vast number of colors and fantasy creations people mistaken it for something perverse. While I have a wall of shame, "Who doesn't," I don't practice prodigal living that I had previously. I hope and pray I have broken the bondage's I struggled with in the past.
On the other side of the river "secular" think I am exclusive or I create hate speech. While I study a difficult Library known as the Bible I do not aim to make hate speech with it. In fact what I do create is parallel to my own life. If I take an example of something my intent is not to hurt or shame. Instead its a moment of my life where I too struggled and I had to change. While things may work for others it did not in my life. So, I had to remove it in order to break my bondage to prodigal living.
I had to start blocking people due to art theft showing up. Not with my art as of yet, but the artist / 's showed reasonable evidence of it. However I will not block merely for disagreements. This is to adhere to my promise I made from the beginning.
I may remove responses to prevent needless debate. I may also remove things that cause me too much distraction. If I remove something you said, but feel strongly about please repeat it in a private message. This way I can respond to you appropriately and without needless debate among others.
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