Just thinking out loud atm while getting ready for bed. Last week I was reading up on binge/purge cycles and started to look at other things in my life that might be a cycle like that. We all pretty much know the story: going all out in something - really overdoing it , then regretting it and trying to totally abstain from it. Both extremes of course are unsustainable, and that's the whole reason for bouncing from one to the other. It's just too damn uncomfortable trying to stay on any side for too long, so you cycle around like crazy.
Well, I just started to wonder if maybe the way I make art is a sort of binge/purge cycle. Right now I'm going through this sort of dry spell, even though I want to do art...it's seems easier to make plans and have good intentions ^^; And of course when I finally put pencil to paper, all those plans and intentions just shatter, and those possibilities tumble down into the small thing on the paper in front of me. Then I'll go find other things to do and look at art here and there. Again the good intentions, and I even have good ideas. But there's that wall again.
This is a broken flow cycle. I know my skill deteriorates when I don't just use it. And my ego's like 'but..but...we could totally do this!! And this would look amazing right?' But my body's all.. 'eh? Stylus? What is dis? It could be called art block, sure, but that doesn't really do it justice. I'd call it "the good intentions / failure of skill" cycle :P
So, I'll take my pride, smash it with a hammer until it shuts up, put on some good music, relax, and just let whatever happen on that paper. Perfect be damned! *smashes it with a hammer too*
5 years, 4 months ago
05 Jun 2013 08:43 CEST