I never really gave this much thought, because like 99% of everybody I went to school where they cram abstract and verbal ways of thought down your throat until it's like it's always been that way. I was always able to imagine things visually though. Not super detailed master pieces or anything. I would do this thing sort of like day dreaming for a whole hour sometimes two hours before sleeping. I would just lay there in bed and imagine these fun silly scenarios or things I would want to try some day. I used my imagination a lot up until college when I took life drawing and painting classes as well as a slew of graphic design stuff. After more schooling my brain was sorta forced back into abstract modes of thought again.
Here recently though, since I've been living here, just doing my own thing, I think the visual part of my brain is more active again. A big example of that is that whenever I'm looking for something around my place, I immediately get an image in my head of where I last saw it. I've done that with my glasses, walking right up to where they were. Other things like keys or my exacto knife or clothes do the same thing. Just today I went grabbing for my xacto knife to cut some plastic and I saw a little "movie" in my head of myself using it to cut open a box on my desk. It's really odd because I've never done things like this before, at least I don't remember it being like an automatic reflex, so it's a little strange but at the same time comforting. It's definitely different from imagining because having to imagine something takes a little more work and "lags" a bit heh. This just feels like a real memory and feels "right" when it happens and it always is when I go to check. There was only one time however when I really really wished I could find something, so I tried to force it and it turned out to be wrong. I was kind of shaken then because I was used to "it" being right all the time heh. That'll teach me to use wishful thinking and force things in place of really knowing!
So, that's my experience so far. Does anyone else deal with this? Is it hard to tell the difference between memory and wishful thinking?
6 years, 3 months ago
22 Aug 2012 05:20 CEST