Currently in a shitty state of mind. Not a mood. A mood would imply having strong feelings and having an understanding of why you feel that way, and it's duration would be something like a couple hours at most. This is more like feeling numb at times, then tired, angry, or something just a tiny blip above numb/negative for days. If you have a perfect life, I most likely will avoid taking to you like the plague. If you constantly talk up about yourself, same.
I haven't really felt like eating much and don't want to talk to people right now (yes i see the irony in writing a journal about not talking). Every time I've woken up for the past couple days, the first thing in my mind is a bad memory, which takes maybe an hour to two hours to get rid of. I think a lot of this is to do with how I've slept, which is incredibly crappy this week(s?). Staying up over 24 hours wasn't uncommon. Sleeping for 12 hours wasn't either. Whatever it is, it's made a wreck of my head. I won't be streaming, uploading things, or talking to anyone for a while. At least until things become normal again. Really need a break from this crappy excuse for a life.
6 years, 8 months ago
11 May 2012 02:11 CEST