This is an art piece I placed meaning into, and it's a physical metaphor for the feud that's going on in my head, the emotional battle of my religion and my bisexuality, tearing me apart.
Being Gay or Bi and religious is tough, especially when you're in a deeply religious muslim family. If you thought Christians treated homosexuality harshly, you have not seen islamic homophobia.
I feel so torn, my religion tells me I'm committing a great atrocity, but what made it really hit home is when one of my cousins, the only one of my family members who knows, had a talk with me.
She was shocked when she first found out, but I trusted her enough and she kept it quiet, and she was somewhat supportive. She didn't really mind and the topic never really came up again.
Then, a couple of weeks ago, she had a talk with me, telling me that I had to "get over it." Apparently she had a long religious talk with her dad, and she learnt how serious of sin this is. She telling me to "stop it", "get over it", "be straight again" I was shocked and hurt, I really was. I felt stabbed in the back, that's all I can say. It hurt so much that this was coming from her.
Now I feel the tug of the religion side, knowing full well that if they ever found out, I would very likely be cast out, shunned from my family, and my family is very close. My cousins are closer to me than my best friends. I'm just...caught in the middle of two forces, tearing at me.
Can't I be both Bi and Muslim?
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11 Mar 2011 11:34 CET
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