She hated herself..she didn't mean to. He wanted to hold his head high but he called himself a failure. They punished themselves so desperately when all they deserved was kindness and encouragement.
..you deserve a chance..you know..?
Some of us get caught in the doorway because we're so unsure. How do we love ourselves when we feel so unloved to begin with? We measure up to those we call great, and feel lost beneath their shadows. We mark a line ahead of ourselves, because we imagine the possibilities.. setting the bar and destination before understanding the journey. When was the last time you breathed..?
Some souls stare in the mirror and they see a failure. They see a monster. They see someone standing in place who will never move on and get better. Your heart isn't crying out in weakness ..it's begging for mercy, and only we can be so gentle and patient to ourselves. I can't see what you see. I can't see someone so impossibly untouchable. I can't imagine you being so terrible. When I stare in that reflection, when I see the years on your face and the hurt in your eyes..despite everything, all I see is you. I pray to whatever being listening that might let you understand how genuinely grateful I am to see that.
If I didn't make it in time...I hope you know that you're not so untouchable, because at least one thing on this planet is reaching out for you, and it's me. I hope you know that you're not stuck in place. That you're not getting worse, but you've been feeling that way for so long that maybe those speculations became your truth. But this all began because you measured yourself up against others and your dreams. Your heart wanted so much and still does! You haven't lost this. You haven't failed. Some never imagine it..some never believe it..but they are worthy of being admired and loved. Of growing and moving forward one step at a time.
So if you never thought it was possible, I want you to remember that you are surrounded by others who believed it was not possible either. I never thought it was possible...so we'll make this dream happen together, okay? I'm reaching out for you, and the pocket watch never comes out for this. You're worth it..you know..?
