This is a very emotional picture for me.
As you know, Elizabeth is a character of mine. She exists and does her own thing, cake and all that.
However, she is also a representation of me.
While I don't know how to adequately explain my life in words...
my art takes care of it wonderfully.
That is what this piece is.
This is a manifestation of my sorrow, pain, and hatred for an incident that happened in my life.
Around the age of 3 or so my "mother" apparently couldn't handle having me. I don't know the cause for it at all. Until I was 7 my parents have been the wonderful parents that have taken care of me to this day. I had no idea of the events that took place but a ball was dropped in my life. My "mother" told me who she was. I actually have two sisters, who I love very much. The main issue with this is why she kept my sisters but tossed me aside. I don't understand why. Was something wrong with me? Did I do something wrong? I DON'T KNOW!! I rarely get to see my sisters. Sometimes I feel like I am the worst big brother ever. I'm not there for them, I can't protect them, I can't do anything for them. It KILLS me inside sometimes knowing that. Some days I go to bed and my mind starts to wander to thoughts I don't need to think about. Every question I typed in yellow is a thought I have had.Those thoughts cause me to feel so much pain, sorrow, and hatred. I usually cry myself to sleep because of it.
At this moment, I can't stand my "mother". She didn't want me, that's fine. Whatever. I'm better off without her anyway. I do my best to avoid her if I can. I still love my sisters though.
, elizabeth the dog
5 years, 5 months ago
08 Jul 2013 08:21 CEST
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