TWILIGHT SPARKLE: there comes a time when friendship isn't everything. there comes a time when friendship just doesn't work. i was betrayed and hurt by the worse possible way. no, not my friends, but by someone i fell in love with. love, was something new to me. at first it was wonderful. a great unique feeling.
but as time went on, that loving feeling begin to sour. things changed. when i thought things couldn't go but up, it went down, the sudden doubts came into my mind, and the fears creeping up. He changed, and not in a good way, when it finally happened, when he finally hurt me, broke my heart-no.-shattered it. i cried. alot. more than any mare could ever cry. i was alone, save for my friends, first came sorrow, then came anger. then came---just not caring anymore.
one night, as i was with friends, they try cheering me up, a dinner with just me, spike and my friends, when everyone was busy laughing, my ears picked up a tune from a radio near by, the lyrics struck a cord in me, and as i listen, i realized that this colt didn't matter. and as i listen, it spoke of words, words that somewhat went against the magic of friendship, but all the same, it was true what i felt.
everything in this song related to me in every way. and because of that, i learn to forget this colt, about friendship. just - myself. caring only for my own well being and what i needed to get away from everypony else. in my books, i could find comfort. and in these songs by the singers, i felt i could overcome my depression.
later that night, as i sat up, with my book, my thoughts drift into that song again. i had a sad expression, as i look at spike. spike was there from day one from my breakup. i had to come to realization that he too will be hurt in some way, by rarity, and i hate to admit it, but she was a snobby bitch. and i could only guess that she will break his heart far worse than i have been through. when that day comes, i decided to be there for him. him, myself, and a bottle of whiskey.
for i knew i loved spike, he was dear to me, and yes, yes. i had always had this crush on my little assistant. for now, I'll wait. for now my heart will be hard as a rock. barricading my heart for now. and when the time comes, maybe...i can allow myself to love again, allowing myself to love spike. it sounds crazy, but, i knew i can make him a whole lot happier.
till then I'll watch over him, and just wait for that day.
for now, as the song title says, I AM A ROCK. I AM AN ISLAND. AND THE ROCK FEELS NO PAIN. AND AN ISLAND NEVER CRIES.
A winter's day, in a deep and dark December, I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On (a) freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island.
I've built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain. It's laughter and it's loving I disdain. I am a rock, I am an island.
Don't talk of love, but I've heard the words before, It's sleeping in my memory. I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died. If I never loved I never would have cried. I am a rock, I am an island.
I have my books, and my poetry to protect me, I am shielded in my armor, Hiding in my room, safe within my womb. I touch no one and no one touches me. I am a rock, I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.