This past week has been a near-constant struggle with staving off my own abject misery.
I returned from a trip at the start of the year feeling like I could take over the world, but got completely emotionally upended as soon as I got home last Sunday. Even after an entire week spent trying to recover, I've been feeling as motivated as when I was still depressed last year. It's been a lot to deal with, and I haven't been coping well.
This weekend was especially awful. Even though I had some time to myself that I hoped to put to use in getting back into the swing of things, I was absolutely not okay, and I wasn't making it easier on myself either. I resolved to at least write a journal post about what had been going on with me if I didn't manage to pull anything off by tonight, but an idea came to mind sometime in the afternoon and it stuck around long enough for me to get over the initial phase of intimidation.
This is both an explanation of why I think I've been spared the worst of my gender dysphoria over the years, and also a fairly accurate rendition of what I've been feeling like lately.
Being entirely honest? I'm really quite proud of how this one turned out. I actually drew all of the personal dysfunctions before I knew what each of them was going to be (with the exception of gender dysphoria) but they all just kinda made sense the way they ended up.
dont kill me and mind im not a native english speaker, but what exactly is gender dysphoria? like the feeling of not having the right gender or something else?
dont kill me and mind im not a native english speaker, but what exactly is gender dysphoria? like th
Don't worry, no need to apologize! I appreciate you asking for clarification.
You're on the right track with that description, but I'll correct you slightly there - it's when someone's gender identity doesn't match the sex they were assigned at birth. In my case, I was Assigned Male At Birth (AMAB) but I feel like I'm closer to being female, with some flexibility and fluidity there too.
The dysphoria comes from the mismatch between what is inside (the desired), and what is outside (the actual).
There are many subtle differences from each person's dysphoria to the next, but it often has to do with physical appearances, and how other people see and treat them based on their personal gender identity.
Don't worry, no need to apologize! I appreciate you asking for clarification. You're on the right t
