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by Sesame
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Hi everyone, I realize I’ve been gone for a while. If you don’t want to read personal stuff, feel free to skip. I’m going to try and draw soon, if that’s whats you’ve been waiting for. If you have requested a commission and I have not done it, I will do it for free. If you paid me, expect a refund.

Ive been in and out of the hospital for my stomach issues, things keep getting stuck and I’m always in pain. It’s been so embarrassing and physically draining.
Just yesterday, I found out my dad has been cheating on my mom. I love my mom very much. I’m devastated about this, I cannot think straight on top of the hospitalization and my regular depression and anxiety. I can’t believe he would leave us like this. I never thought my parents would get a divorce. I can’t even imagine what my father looks like. I keep having nightmares. He yelled and threw stuff, he punched things but he was still my father and we had our moments. I don’t even want to associate with him anymore.

All this while I’m away from home at school. School was already rough enough.

Im struggling here.

Why am I posting this? Well, a few reasons. I wanted to update everyone for a while now, but never felt it was appropriate. I’ve felt very guilty about commissions I have left. If you requested a commissions before today and I haven’t done it, I will do it for free when I feel ready as an apology.

Im starting to become in need of money due to the hospitalization and since my mom is now single and doesn’t make much money I need to support her somehow. I can’t hold a normal job being in school and in and out of the doctors, the only thing I can do is draw on my iPad.

It’ll be therapeutic, I think. Hopefully I can just focus on my art.

This is all wishful thinking. I don’t even know if I want to draw. I’ve been questioning career choices and I just don’t want to do anything. My minds a mess right now. I’m sorry.

Tl;dr. I’m not doing well. Parents divorce. Hospitalization. I will be doing some YCHs because they are easy and I need money.

Edit: please message me on inkbunny about commissions, not discord.

Some things that have been supporting me are animaniacs and sonic. I’m willing to draw those things if anyone wants.

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male 834,944, inu 851, dump 504, info 378, sorry 127, i’m 63
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Published: 2 months, 3 weeks ago
Rating: General

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Loopa
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Im so sorry :c. All the love for you
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Thanks :c
chocochu
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I'm so sorry buddy! I totally understand the Mom and Dad stuffs...I had something similar I love my Mom too...wish stuffs could have been better~ ;w;
I do hope stuffs can get better some how...I'll be sure to try and help/support ya by buying some commissions of course, missed you happy your back!~ o^w^o
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Thank you choco :c
chocochu
2 months, 3 weeks ago
*gives you a big soft choco rai huggie* chu's welcome~ >w<
Kellyn
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I am really sorry to hear about everything you are going through. I really hope you are able to get out of this low point in your life soon and see some happier days.

Also while I know it isn't really the point I also wanted to say that this is a beautiful picture. You are a fantastic artist and I can really feel the emotion that went into this.

P.s.
IVs suck... Literally the worst part about being hospitalized (next to nurses waking you up at all hours of the night when all you want to do is sleep)
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Thank you for the kind words, I hate needles, my vein hurts
Kellyn
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I don't like needles but I don't exactly hate them. What I hate about IVs is that feeling that you can't move your arm or the iv will somehow hurt you.
grimdank
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Holy shit man, that's a lot for a person to handle -- props for being so strong throughout it, even though its hard to do so. I'm so sorry to hear about all of this, and I really hope things turn around for the better soon for you and your mom. I know it doesn't mean much from an internet stranger, but reach out if you ever need someone to talk to. Take care of yourself, Sesame.
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Thank you so much.
ALESSIO626
2 months, 3 weeks ago
so sorry to hear i dont know what to say but we are for you if you need us to support you  https://thumbs.dreamstime.com/z/people-group-young-teen...
Azerai
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Much love, it's a shame life is throwing so much at you at once! I hope you feel better soon
Atrolux
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Sorry about all that, wish you the best. You could do a small donation drive, or make a Ko-Fi!
Neos8
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Oh man dude I wish I would have know. Im sorry to hear that and I hope you feel better ok
D3F4LT99
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Worry less about commissions and focus on your physical and mental health, stay strong, I wish you the best
PawWhispers
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Focus in healing man, and take it easy. You've certainly been through a lot, and you'll need to take time to process and handle it all.
Keep getting better, putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward. <3
PrematureYeenjaculatio
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I hope things get better for you soon, you are a certified Rad Person!
MiniatureLabyrinth
2 months, 3 weeks ago
If you ever need to vent or just talk with someone just send me a pm buddy.
1derfur
2 months, 3 weeks ago
you're awesome dude i'm so sorry everything sucks right now 😿 <hug> 2020 is putting us through hell but we will emerge stronger on the other side
JayJayTheKitty
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Is the new Animainiacs good then? I've been on the fence about watching it.
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Not as good as the OG imo
JayJayTheKitty
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Yeah, I had my doubts when I looked up the writing team and they had... no credits before Animainiacs.

And no Slappy? Whaaaaat?
3timer
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I'm sorry to hear about your family issues.

Regarding your health issue.  I have lived with a rare disorder called esophageal achalasia for most of my adult life.  I'm not sure if it's the same thing you have (you didn't specify upper or lower GI), but it is extremely painful and prevents food from moving into my stomach.  I remember it being very difficult to get a proper diagnosis.  Doctors were suggesting bulimia, heart disease, and even cancer before finally figuring it out, all the while I lost nearly half of my body weight.  You have my most sincere sympathy for having to suffer anything remotely similar.
Sesame
2 months, 3 weeks ago
We still don’t know what’s going on, I’ve gotten so many tests. I have pain all over my body when touched and it’s mostly lower GI issues. I keep gaining weight so they do not think it’s cancer but at this point I wouldn’t even exclude it, because we have no idea. My inflammation markers are so high :(
Azko
2 months, 3 weeks ago
I wish you the best! ♥
Rayn
2 months, 3 weeks ago
Awww, heck. ;w;
I hope it's gonna get better for you soon!
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