Well, to cut to the point, I'm headed for university, and will be devoting time to studying and making sure I do well.
This obviously means my uploading will slow down considerably, and I'll only be doing drawing for maybe half an hour each day only. This is also why commissions are now slotted, and I can only take one at a time, and even then it will take a very long time to finish it up, depending on the situation.
Art has always been a passion, and I relish in being able to bring to life whatever my mind comes up with. I love drawing up characters, making them cute or attractive, or just deciding to create a scenario in my head of whatever I come up with.
But this hasn't been the best way to live and make an income. Reality does set in, and commissions aren't the best way to put food on the table. I live with my folks still, but I know full well I cannot live off of them indefinitely. I'd never be able to get it off my chest if I lived out my days drawing, taking their money as allowances, living like I don't owe anyone anything.
I also don't wanna have art as a job, seeing as how lots of graphic designers and artists I've met in the corporate world suffer from so much stress. Sure, art is amazing, but I want to also keep my sanity, and not go the way of Van Gogh and cut my ear and my life short. Passion mixed with work is a hard thing to seperate, and an easy catalyst for depression to set in, of which I've already exhibited mild symtomps.
Basically, in summary, I'm pursuing something else, something with a bit more purpose, something in which art becomes a form of relaxation to unwind, and to keep me happy. Having done this for the past five years, I feel that it isn't going to work out. It's a tough choice, to no longer do as much art. But I find it a neccessary thing to do.
This isn't an end. I'm not going to quit drawing, put down my stylus and pencils and burn my sketchbooks. I'm just changing lanes and getting a new map. In the end, life is about discovery, and I want to discover something else, something different. And halfway, if I don't like what I chose, I'll rechoose again. Shake the dust off, patch the bruises, cry my tears, but stand up and try once more.
I'll still post here, just not as much, so don't worry too much about me~
