Beth walks into a hospital. She goes through some double doors past some floors then up to the front desk. The woman at the desk asks, her if she can do anything. Beth takes a deep breath and says, “Could you call Doctor Stansun and him, Doctor Livington is here to see him” The woman types on the computer and says, “I'm sorry doctor but Doctor Stansun left here two years ago”
She sighs disappointed but half expecting something like this. She says, “Do you know who took his place?” The woman nods and says, “It seems Doctor Emily did” Beth thinks back but don't remember her. So goes on and says, “Could you see if she would see me?”
A minute later after talking on the phone she hangs up and tells Beth, “I'm sorry but she's in meeting all day. Can I leave a message?” Beth feeling defeated shakes her head and says, “No, but thank you” She turns around wanting a drink and walks toward the door.
She almost makes it when she runs into someone. Who looks and screams, “OH MY GOD!” Beth looks at her and smiles, and says, “Kelly” Kelly nods and hugs her and says, “Beth are you back. Please be back” Beth shrugs and says, “Just visiting sorry”
Kelly says, “Well you need to meet Suzy. She took over for Doctor Stansun, I'm sure she'd like to meet you” Kelly leaves and says, “Come on” Beth follows.
A minute later their in the back after going threw some secured doors.
Kelly knocks on a thick door that has Doctor Susanne Emily on it. Beth says, “She's in a meeting. I don't wont to interrupt” Kelly rolls her eyes and says, “She has meetings on Tuesdays. She tells people that don't have an appointment that”
The door opens and a really young deer walks out and smiles at Kelly and says, “Is there anything you need?” Kelly points to Beth and says, “I'd like you to meet the woman that got me to being a assistant. Doctor Livington, she likes to be called Beth though”
Beth smiles and says, “Hello doctor” Susan nods and says, “Call me Suzy. Nice to meet you. I was told not to touch your old office so if your here to come back it just needs to be dusted” Beth smiles and says, “Oh no I'm just here to visit. I had something I needed to ask Jerry” Susan smiles and says, “Well I took his place so come in” She waves her, “In ask me anything”. She nods to Kelly and says, “Thank you”
Beth sits across from her and says, “I'm sorry to interrupt” Susan shakes her head and says, “No it's nothing. Next time just come on back and tell Kelly your here” Beth sighs and says, “I actually came here for my old job, but I'm to nervous and to be honest being back in this area is a bit too much. So I think I'll leave”
Susan nods and says, “How about I don't hire you right back. You come in when you feel like get use to your office and being back before we talk about hiring you again”
Beth nods and says, “I really didn't expect him to save everything” Susan replies, “They told me what happened, that had to of been horrific. If your fear is seeing anything reminding you of what happened. Everything was cleaned up”
Beth nods and says, “OK” Susan lays some keys on her desk and says, “Go see. If you need me to go with you I can” Beth shakes her head and says, “I can go alone thank you” She picks up the keys then walks out the door.
She walks a little way down the hall. Two door down, she stops in front of a light brown door that has a place for a name tag but nothing. She looks down at her hands and they're shaking hard. Flashes of what happened is popping into her head. She slowly opens the door before turning on the light to a light beige room. With a Khaki colored carpet. Two black chairs in front of a large oak desk and a leather couch to the right. There are pictures of flowers everywhere.
The room is scarier that she thought it would be. And amazing very clean. But then as she walks to her desk she looks at one of the chairs and sees a flash of red. She remembers what happened and screams. She runs out of the room fast slamming the door behind her.
In the hall she runs into Susan who hugs her.
Susan waves people away and guides Beth into her office. She sits her down on the couch and says, “Beth it's OK” Beth is crying hysterically. Susan sits beside her and lets her cry on her shoulder. After a few minutes Beth says, “I saw it again. I'm not ready I can't go back” Susan nods and says, “Beth, I know you want to or you wouldn't be here. But you do need to go at your own pace. The first step is the hardest. You just took it. How about you go home and get a loved one. Your boyfriend, sister, or just someone that can hold your hand” Beth sighs and says, “I should bring Vicky” Susan smiles and says, “Is that your sister?” Beth shakes her head and says, “No girlfriend. I'm gay” Susan nods and says, “OK GO get her I'll be waiting for you” Beth nods and leaves.
Beth gets in her car calmer than she believed she would be but after she’s out on the road. Her mouth goes dry. Then she begins seeing images of what happened. She’s knocked out of it a couple of times by horns blowing because she was moving over into on coming traffic. She pulls over into a small shopping plaza.
She parks in front of a liquor store then she flashes back to when to hours after the event happened. She convinced everyone she was able to go home. In truth, she was tired of everyone coming at her. She needed some space. But she started shaking and crying hysterically.
Now she looks down at her hands and again their shaking. She opens her door then another flash back happens.
This time she’s in the liquor store. She opens a bottle of Jack and chugs it in the isle. A store clerk yells, “Hey no drinking in the store!” But she drops the bottle and opens another.
Then a manager took the bottles away and says “Mam get out or we’re calling the cops” Beth drunk replied, “Give me” Taking one back and tried to drink it. The manager yelled, “Steph call the cops” A second later, “I already pressed the alarm” Two more people helped the manager out because Beth keeps going for the liquor.
The cops show up minutes later and arrest her. Beth now was crying, “Please give me. Give me” She was barely aware of where she’s located between flashes of what had just happened and the craving for alcohol.
But soon she’s drug out to the back of a police cruiser where she’s left for a while before being taken to the station.
A few hours later she calmed down and payed for the bottle she drank and paid a fine for public intoxication and disorderly conduct. But found out she couldn't get her car out of lockup till the next day so she walked the five miles to her house.
Beth sits back down and sighs before backing up and heading in the directions she came. She drives back to the hospital where she walks in asks to see Susan.
She walks up to her office and to see her with a smile on. Beth sighs and says, “I want to think you for holding my office for me. But I’m going to have to quit” Susan walks to her and says, “I figured you wasn’t ready. But remember your job is always open any time you want to return just talk to me” Beth shakes her head and says, “I can’t risk it happening again. The last time” Susan stops her and says, “I heard. But if it helps I probably wouldn’t of handled the scenario as well as you did” Beth clasps her hands and politely bows saying, “Thank you so much” they hug then Beth leaves, with a feeling of completion all over her.
She went there thinking she was going to start her old job back and surprise Vicky. Now she gets in her car and starts thinking about Tom. She laughs and says, “I’m going to be a mom”. She rubs her stomach imagining then sighs and leaves.