There have been times where I let myself slip and neglect the things I want to see get done. If you overtax yourself it can only make that slip a lot worse. I had a night not to long ago where I did just that, all day I just relaxed, drank and played vid games all day. When it came time to bed I felt like utter crap, maybe I needed that reminder of how I would feel if I just coasted my way through life. I know this is a rediculous hard road for myself, I want my own creations to be realized even if it means I do everything myself. Maybe as I build up this channel and my skill I can find others where we can share each others vision and ideas.