Here’s what I looked like back in 2011, the true start of my teenage years, which, as of now, 2017, are officially gone.
Before, in my childhood, I liked to watch cartoons all the time. But by 2008 and 2009, Jimmy Neutron, Camp Lazlo, The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy and all the shows I grew up with were being replaced. Discovery Kids was replaced by The Hub. Cartoon Network turned cancerous with crap like Regular Show and Adventure Time, so I tried watching [adult swim] and South Park, and the internet and video games started taking over my life since children’s cartoons had contacted a horrid disease.
But the old days of being attached to a Nintendo 64 and DS were over, too. Around 2010 or 2011, my family got a PS3 and an X-Box 360. When before I liked to play Dinosaur King, Fossil League: Dino Tournament Championship and Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Time, now I was hooked onto Saints Row 2 and The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim. Also, my old N64 was sold, so for playing The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time and Majora’s Mask, I had to rely on a Wii. I also started staying up all night playing games. No good TV, so I kinda had no choice, except the internet.
In my childhood, I watched Cute Mario Bros., Youtube Poops, Legend of Zelda Abridged by adamwestlapdog and Stick Figures on Crack and looked up stuff about dinosaurs and animals on Wikipedia, and that was most of my internet experience. But around 2010 and 2011, I started getting into Angry Video Game Nerd and Shitcase Cinema, reading all kinds of websites, and my life was now firmly glued to a computer.
In music taste, I profoundly changed in 2011. Ever since I first heard Sum 41’s “We’re All To Blame” on Godzilla Final Wars, heard Slipknot’s “Psychosocial” and was shown Korn and Disturbed by my mom, I was really hooked on music, using Songfacts and Youtube’s dinosaur tribute videos to find more. In 2008, I was firmly in the nu metal sphere, but in ’09 I really got a taste of metal and other forms of heavy music. I was into Lordi, Sonata Arctica (thanks lappydog), Children of Bodom from the internet, and my mom showed me Metallica and Ozzy Osbourne, but even into 2010, I was still mostly listening to Korn and Three Days Grace.
This shifted in 2011. I started really getting into thrash metal and hardcore punk. Dead Kennedys, Anti-Nowhere League, The Exploited, D.R.I., Suicidal Tendencies, Megadeth, Exodus, Dark Angel and Slayer now ruled my music world. I also liked a lot of NWOTM bands like Warbringer, Fueled by Fire, Dr. Living Dead!, Immaculate and Gama Bomb. Then I started finding all sorts of other genres the next year, old school power metal like Manilla Road and Griffin, NWOBHM, even black and death metal.
A lot also changed in my life. I lost all my friends around 2011 and 2012. All of the old friends I had turned their backs to me. Except for one guy, and I made two friends in 7th grade (2011), but I had to move schools and lost them. I had had to move schools for my Asperger’s before, in 2009, but I did keep one friend from the old school, who would come to my house. After 2012, no one ever visited. I had a few acquaintances in the special education class, but outside of them, no one. By 2010 I had also not gone to any summer school. I used to have to go to summer school for my disability and made some friends in there, but I had stopped. I also stopped travelling. From 2012 to 2016, I rarely left the house outside of school. I did not play outside, I did not have friends. I only played games and watched videos on Youtube.
My teenage years are over. I have graduated high school, I made a few friends on the internet, I am now traveling more and rediscovering lots of nostalgic things from my childhood. But I also am moving forward. I will be going to college, working, doing more. My adult life will not just be me going back to childhood while also retaining my teenage years. I have grown a lot in these four years. I am now mostly free of all the negative parts of Asperger’s, I have become willing to work and live on my own.
Now I just have the rest of my life ahead of me. Bye, teenage years. I loved them, but, like my childhood, my love for those times does not mean I won’t keep going. I have grown up.
1 year, 4 months ago
09 Jul 2017 23:24 CEST
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