now as you guys know @QuartzYellow went under because I felt that she needed to have a reality check of sorts to get her onto the right track, but guys I have been geeing that some people have been purposly going out of there way to attack her and not even try to speak to me or her close friends to see how is she changing, and via assuming that she is not trying to do anything to better herself.
I have been keeping my eye on her ever since she came back here with me under this house that we stay in and she isnt the same person who was lazy an manipulative, she has been doing many things trying to get her reputation back to how it was, and me and her both know that it will take time for her to recover from what she has done.
as far as I know she has gone out of her way to finish every commission and then some extra benefits to make amends to those she has hurt, including me, sure it was hurtful but I did what I did to better herself, not to wrongfully bash her because she damaged our loving relationship that is still going on as I am typing this.
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I have did everything I can in order to show that I have changed in order to show you guys that I am keeping to my words in order to have you guys understand that I have changed and or that I am putting myself out there for you guys to see. As far as I know it no one has bothered to ask if I have changed and or asked Koro if I have changed in order to have the right judgement, Yes I have fucked up and admitted to everything that I've done because I knew that I was in the wrong and that I had done so much to the point of where I lost my way.
Koro showed me everything that I've done and basically kicked it into my head that I was wrong and I gladly accepted what happened to me. I kept my words, finished almost all commissions, finished the ones that Have been late past 2 months, 5 months, 1 year. I went out of my way to show you guys that I kept to them but I'm still getting hate mail and basically getting the hard hate thats came my way.
I got called many names and as far as the worst of them has been is Thot and or worst. I've had close friends not even believe me when I try to tell them that I changed. Most and or all have said "I haven't seen anything, and as far as we know you're still slimy and shitty". Not saying that what has happened was deserved but after I changed its getting hurtful to the point of crying myself to sleep while Koro isn't around. I'm not saying this to put up a guilt trip. I'm saying this because its the truth...
I just want people to see that I have changed instead of constantly judging me because of my mistake.
~QuartzYellow
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As she was typing this she was pretty upset at herself and was crying, but you your reading all this and you still have the notion to attack her and just believe that she is not changing is is planning to use me then your dead wrong and I will show you that she isnt everytime, I love her but not trying to be bias but I did this so she can learn that everyone deserves a second chance, and if that person wants to improve then they will make the effort to do it themselves, everyone is not perfect, everyone should know that by now but I did my best to keep this relationship that we both have for each other solid as it could ever be, and I will continue to do so till we part, so enough with the name calling, enough with the asumptuous notion that she wont change, and enough with all the drama.
so share this with others around in our own circle of friends and those who are new, tell them that my fiance is becoming a better person, tell them that I am proud to have a lady who will admit to her wrongdoings and is willing to turn around for the better, because remember she had a choice, to fail or to succeed, to be good or to become bad, she chose to become a better person, she could have never moved back in with me from her bad living situation, she could have ended our relationship because she didnt understand why I bashed on her in such a way, not only that but she could have said F*CK you all and kept going on the way she was, BUT she didnt she wanted to be with me, her close friends, and she wanted to succeed as a artist and a fine individual......
thats all I need to say about this..... because I have a couple of my friends (as expected) saying that I am doing the wrong thing on trying to help her, when they don't understand the concept of giving chances.
if you had a friend/family member that was doing the wrong thing all the time would you help them knowing that you could for the better, or would you rather watch them suffer and become something that they are not?......
just a nother thing before i close this out. I am not perfect myself, I stole, went to a juvinile center, expelled from a school, and even lied to my close friends and family, but to those who know me, AND I DO MEAN KNOW ME, I don't do that type of shit anymore because if it was not for my Aunt, and my Godmother, I would not be here.... i would not be living, I would not be in front of my computer telling you guys about all this, I would be somewhere else, maybe in jail, maybe not even drawing content for you guys, DJ'ing , I could have been dead. but its because I chose to better myself before things got worst, I even almost killed someone close to me, so you can see why this is a big deal for me.....
I have changed and things turned out fine, I expect the same respect to those who communicate to me and my fiance..... mind you she has never experienced anything that I had to go through and I dont plan on her going down that path, I LOVE HER TOO DAMN MUCH TO SEE HER FAIL....
so again
stop with all the disrespect and try to get to know us, before assuming the worst of us, in fact as a whole .... meaning to others, and to people who are making a change for the better.....
that is all....
