Another Year Older

by CCubed

Happy Birthday to me I guess. Aug 19th, I'm another year older yet none the wiser.

Cest la vie though, life is one hard journey that busts your nuts hard, and yet I always seem to want to keep going. Always moving, always wanting a better life.

I dunno what keeps me going at this point, but at least I'm still progressing. Despite my slow development of art and such, I find myself engulfed in music and writing quite often. Sure, I'm kinda hitting a slowing point again, but at least I'm not wallowing in self-pity (mostly) like I have for the past 2 years.

Although, what now?

I guess I just keep going . . .

I'm not sure how to progress at this point, since I'm still stuck in a bit of a dead end with job hunts (although I did turn down Walmart due to shit pay) and still hanging on a lot of "ifs" when it comes to my remaining academic career. Sure, the music degree won't pay shit in the long run, but honestly the degree doesn't define me. It's my life, my story; I'll write it how I please (although fuck me, I sound TOO much like Tidus from FF10. Fuckin pimpledick)

Still, I'm trying to grab the reigns of my life and get back some control. While it has been one FUCK of a battle, I'm still here, still alive, and still wanting more.

If I can figure out how to raise $500 each month, I should be alright. The bigger issue now though, is how to obtain that money if I can't nail a steady job. I'd gladly throw myself into Full-Time Content Creation, but then I ask myself where to focus on? Videos? Music? Smutty Comics? General Comic work? Other? Advice is helpful, although I'm terrible at following it > . <

Anyhow, I still thank you all for still watching me and liking my content. Even though you put up with my shit a lot, I appreciate every ounce of support you've guys given me. This year was a massive improvement, but I still have a long way to go.

. . . if I could pay you all back in some way, I'd do it in a heartbeat.

Thank you. May Amaterasu keep you warm and safe.