To those who have me added on either skype or discord, I would like to issue a public apology for my lack of... well, anything.
You people would have noticed that I am barely online or talk to you regularly. There is a reason for this: I am highly pessimistic by nature and am always afraid of disturbing people. Because of this, I do not know how to engage in small talk or hold a decent conversation. Whenever I want to talk to someone I am stopped by the thought that I'd be a bother to them or they are busy or that I am simply not worth talking to. Consequently, this has led to me being unable to maintain many friendships and prevented me from starting any new ones.
This is why I keep myself invisible even if I am not at work or asleep. I think it is easier that way than showing I'm here and being afraid to respond to people. A petty and cowardly thought, I know, but this old idiot doesn't know any better. I want to change this and be more engaging but I'm not sure how.
So there you have it. Ever wondered why I'm displayed as idle or online on skype and discord but you never hear from me? Here's your answer.
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17 Jul 2017 23:57 CEST
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