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Kepora

I'm not used to talking about this, but...

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...feeling rather depressed now. I was on Second Life, exploring the sims around my home one, and I came across a parcel called Mousehole. Turns out the girl I still care about, Nori Ovis ( http://norimouse.tumblr.com/ ) owns/lives on said parcel. I tried to leave a small object with a note and stuff on it, but...within about half an hour, I was ejected again. Nearly a year and a half now, and just...I can’t shake it. I don’t know what I did wrong. I don’t know what I might’ve said that would’ve made her dislike me so much, and it just...it hurts so much every time I think about it. I genuinely cared for her.

...I still do, too. I just wish she’d just...tell me what happened, why things have to be like this.
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Added: 6 years, 9 months ago
 
dilbertdog
6 years, 9 months ago
maybe  they  dont want pepole leaving  stuff on ther land
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
:|
NeksusCat
6 years, 9 months ago
I know how you're feeling, man..
There was a good friend of mine, with whom I wanted to become a couple, she seemed to share my desire, we've agreed on moving together, to see how thing would turn out.
But at some point she quit talking to me, not explaining anything, and when I've tried to get a word out of her, she started lying to me, that we're still friends and she'll find a time to chat with me.
Then she changed her phone, skype and everything, she even told our mutual friend to leave her alone.
No explanation, nothing. Just blatant ignorance.
Only one thing I know - at that time she moved with someone else, before she dumped both me and our mutual friend.
We've been good friends for about 3 years, willing to be together. How it came to all this? I dunno.. -_-
I had to live over this, else I'd end up in a deep depression again. Wasn't easy tho.

I wish you to get past it as well, man. People in our lives come and goes. If she doesn't want to talk to you for some reason - it's wrong not to tell, but you shouldn't beat yourself over it. It won't give you anything good in return.
*hugs tightly*
Phazon
6 years, 9 months ago
-hugs quietly-
mickhead
6 years, 9 months ago
Dude it sucks no one one has told you the reason, so now it's up to me.

She just doesn't like you. That is the only reason she needs. As for what you did; it was not one thing. It's you, not your actions, that she does not like. But I can tell from your post that you're inexperienced, immature or both. You are emotionally unattractive.

My best advice is to give up on her. You will not ever get her back. You are ACTING like a stalker. Stop obsessing about her. Do a few years of soul searching.
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
All I wanted was to hear from her on the matter. I'm sorry if my inexperience on matters like this is a bother, but that's all I want - some fucking answers.

Seriously, all I did was say "hi" the day this shit went down, and that just...it hurt me.
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
And like I said - yes, I'm inexperienced. Very much so. And both people I've tried relationships with before, well....they were short-lived, and they weren't the most stable people either. It doesn't help that I'm also actually in the autistic spectrum (asperger's), and it's taken me years just to get to converse with even friends as well as I do now. I have problems, and if they bother her that badly...it still hurts, but I understand. I just wish she would've had the decency to tell me directly so I could improve, instead of leaving me hanging wondering what I did wrong, what could have been done better, was someone doing/saying shit behind my back, etc.
mickhead
6 years, 9 months ago
Oh just grow up and stop bitching already. I have told you everything you need to know. I have nothing more to say to you on this matter of yours! Oh wait almost forgot to tell you; you don't deserve an answer from her. She deserves to forget about you!
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
No, I do deserve an answer from her, after the way she treated me. And no - she doesn't deserve me.

Now you're giving me a case to make sure she doesn't forget.
mickhead
6 years, 9 months ago
What the fuck is wrong with you!
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
You're the one with the fucking problem, obviously. You did what I wanted - what I needed - to hear what was going on. I elaborate on the matter to give you a better understanding, say my peace on the mattet, and how do you reply? You do the same shit she did. You flip out on me for absolutely fucking nothing. Then you go and attack further in a pretty blatant attempt to try and make me feel worse.

You try to bully and kick someone who simply doesn't fucking know better for saying that they need help because they don't fucking understand what's going on or why, someone who has very little relationship experience - almost none of it good - and you have the gall to ask what the fuck is wrong with me?

This had best be of your own volition, because if she sent you/told you to say this shit, then I will fucking chase her off of Second Life. She doesn't deserve to have a cute avatar and such, if this is how she really is.
mickhead
6 years, 9 months ago
Sir you are not the victim. You are the perpetrator. She deserves to be left alone by you. The way you have acted is unacceptable! I must ask you stop your use of profanity this instant. I have already told you why she left you. I have explained that your attempts to return to her life should end. Stop stalking her. Start avoiding her. She is clearly happier when you are not in her life. You are not the victim. You are a monster. I am not a white knight. I just enjoy waking up delusional people like you. I love watching the truth painfully dawn on your feeble minds. I will keep talking until you understand why have been thrown away like a bag of excrement!
Kepora
6 years, 9 months ago
Actually, i became a victim when she threw a fit at me and blocked me for only saying "hi". For never acting like a damn adult and telling me "why'. For sending a shitty attack dog like you after me rather than having the guts to speak to me directly. I'm the "delusional" one, yet I've left this alone for a year now, only brought up because the bitch decided to set up shop practically next door to me - where she KNEW I was. So no - if she doesn't want me around? She can pack the fuck up and move somewhere else, because I've been where I am for FAR longer than her.

And you know what? I'm starting to think you don't even know her, and that you're here just to start shit.
mickhead
6 years, 9 months ago
You have lost touch with reality! You still think you are the victim. You think she knew you lived on that parcel of land. You think I'm here to start shit! I see I need to spell this out for you again.

You are not the victim. She wants nothing to do with you. She blocked you because you because you do not care about her or what she wants. She is the victim because you refuse to stop harassing her! She didn't know you lived on that parcel. She would not have moved to a parcel where her stalker lives; who would? Like I said before; I just enjoy shattering the warped worldview of delusional people like you. I just love to watch people struggle to hold onto the fantasy they wish was reality. The worldviews delusional people construct are so pathetic they fascinate me. It's rare when I can actually snap them out of their delusion, but when I succeed it's one of the best feelings in the world! I'm not here to start ”shit”. I'm here to change your life.for the better. You are the one that started this not me. Remember you asked for help. I am here because I can fulfill your request. In fact I'm the only one here that's trying to help you.
Kepora
6 years, 7 months ago
Actually, she DOES know I live on the aforementioned parcel. She'd been to my home multiple times before all this shit happened.

Because I don't care about her? Are you fucking kidding me? I tried to ask her ALL THE DAMN TIME and I could barely even get a "hi" back half the damn time! Half the time when she DID respond, it was when she was fucking drunk!

Harassing? Then maybe she shouldn't move in practically next door to the guy who she hurt. That was REAL fuckin' smart.

And you know, I wasn't being a stalker. I asked her time and time again, had friends try to relay messages for me, asking her to just fucking TALK to me so we could talk about what was wrong and sort it out like adults. Now I just want her fuckin' gone so I don't have to see her name and shit nearby.

And no, you're here to start shit and be a dick. If you actually DO know her, then that's proof that you aren't here to help. You claim to know what I did or what I wanted, or what I was willing to do for her, but your version of this is incredibly one-sided.

Before all this went down, I tried to get to know her better.
I tried to learn her interests.
I tried to find out what she wanted, what she liked.
I tried to be her friend.
I tried to stand up for her, especially after shit like what happened at Hentai High. Hell, I still have the logs from that.
I tried to do everything I could with what little knowledge and experience I had on the matter.
I tried to help resolve drama between her and friends.
I tried to do what I thought was right, especially after having only two partners before that ended up being crazy.
But I could only do so fucking much when the person I was trying to do all this for couldn't be arsed to give me the time of fucking day.
If I was IMing her too much? SHE SHOULD'VE JUST TOLD ME. I CAN'T RECTIFY BAD BEHAVIOR IF I DON'T KNOW I'M DOING WRONG IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE.
If I wasn't IMing her enough? SHE SHOULD'VE JUST TOLD ME. I CAN'T RECTIFY BAD BEHAVIOR IF I DON'T KNOW I'M DOING WRONG IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE.

So no. She isn't the fucking victim. She needlessly lashed out at someone who cared about her greatly just for fucking saying "hi", and completely shattered any self-image and the likes he had left. She fucking hurt me, and it still fucking hurts because she's someone I genuinely cared about, even with how shitty she was to me (leaving me hanging for hours at a time, rarely spending any time with me in the first place, never telling me about her or her interests so I COULD get to know her better, asking for pictures of my RL self and giving me very little about her, only really talking to me when she's been drinking, etc). Desite all that, I still fucking tried, and this is how she ended up treating me.

Honestly, at this point, I don't think I even could talk to her without it getting ugly. I just want her to fucking scram away from the place I've been for nearly ten fucking years so I can enjoy myself in fucking peace.
mickhead
6 years, 7 months ago
" Kepora wrote:
Actually, she DOES know I live on the aforementioned parcel. She'd been to my home multiple times before all this shit happened.

Because I don't care about her? Are you fucking kidding me? I tried to ask her ALL THE DAMN TIME and I could barely even get a "hi" back half the damn time! Half the time when she DID respond, it was when she was fucking drunk!

Harassing? Then maybe she shouldn't move in practically next door to the guy who she hurt. That was REAL fuckin' smart.

And you know, I wasn't being a stalker. I asked her time and time again, had friends try to relay messages for me, asking her to just fucking TALK to me so we could talk about what was wrong and sort it out like adults. Now I just want her fuckin' gone so I don't have to see her name and shit nearby.

And no, you're here to start shit and be a dick. If you actually DO know her, then that's proof that you aren't here to help. You claim to know what I did or what I wanted, or what I was willing to do for her, but your version of this is incredibly one-sided.

Before all this went down, I tried to get to know her better.
I tried to learn her interests.
I tried to find out what she wanted, what she liked.
I tried to be her friend.
I tried to stand up for her, especially after shit like what happened at Hentai High. Hell, I still have the logs from that.
I tried to do everything I could with what little knowledge and experience I had on the matter.
I tried to help resolve drama between her and friends.
I tried to do what I thought was right, especially after having only two partners before that ended up being crazy.
But I could only do so fucking much when the person I was trying to do all this for couldn't be arsed to give me the time of fucking day.
If I was IMing her too much? SHE SHOULD'VE JUST TOLD ME. I CAN'T RECTIFY BAD BEHAVIOR IF I DON'T KNOW I'M DOING WRONG IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE.
If I wasn't IMing her enough? SHE SHOULD'VE JUST TOLD ME. I CAN'T RECTIFY BAD BEHAVIOR IF I DON'T KNOW I'M DOING WRONG IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE.

So no. She isn't the fucking victim. She needlessly lashed out at someone who cared about her greatly just for fucking saying "hi", and completely shattered any self-image and the likes he had left. She fucking hurt me, and it still fucking hurts because she's someone I genuinely cared about, even with how shitty she was to me (leaving me hanging for hours at a time, rarely spending any time with me in the first place, never telling me about her or her interests so I COULD get to know her better, asking for pictures of my RL self and giving me very little about her, only really talking to me when she's been drinking, etc). Desite all that, I still fucking tried, and this is how she ended up treating me.

Honestly, at this point, I don't think I even could talk to her without it getting ugly. I just want her to fucking scram away from the place I've been for nearly ten fucking years so I can enjoy myself in fucking peace.


This is how a stalker acts.
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