Ugh. Where do I even begin anymore?
I suppose I should take it all from the top.
Back in early 2016, my grandmother and I, were forced to move due to the house we lived in collapsing around our heads. We had to ditch reliable internet for... Nothing. Seriously, where we moved, NO ONE would do internet service at. It was a quaint place, though, but it was horrifically depressing, and lonely.
Sure, I had my cell phone to tether to the computer for internet access, but I was basically barred from everything I loved. Playing online games, watching YouTube videos, that sort of stuff. But, everything was still pretty... decent. Depressing, lonely, yes. But it was decent.
And then, at the end of the year, my grandma's health took a huge nosedive, and she was put into a nursing home, thus cutting off that cushy living and money that didn't have to be worked for. I wound up moving into my sister's house, where there's somewhat decent internet, but the downside is living with disrespectful kids and being yelled at every so often for something stupid.
Not even a week after I moved in, my grandma died. Basically killing off the last leftover of my childhood.
And now I'm having to desperately look for a job, so I can start making my own money, to get my own place, to live out a lonely existence of working retail and basically being alone. I'm losing friends left and right, my stress levels are going through the roof... I've even considered just swimming out into the lake until my body couldn't take it anymore just to end it all.
I don't even know what to do anymore. Nothing's going right for me anymore... Life just sucks.
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03 Apr 2017 22:07 CEST
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