I work hard on every piece I put up, but I'm supposed to do it for chump change or for free because my art isn't good enough.

Remember that commission I told you I got duped on? It was for a friend; redesigning his logo (for his rap career) 3 different fucking times, mind you. This friend told me the ENTIRE time I was working on this, "I got you! As soon as I get paid, I got you! I promise!" Nope. I get the bomb dropped on me.  "Sorry. I got hit with overdraft fees. I'm not sure when I'm going to be able to pay you."

So I rant and I rave on how I needed that money to feed Connor and Haley. Basically got ignored.

I've been pissed about this all weekend. Tried to put up a YCH to make up for $50 I lost doing that logo.

Bomb #2  Only one bid and nothing more.

So I've spent the whole weekend moping and fuming because I have no other way to make money to take care of my family until Haley starts school and until I can finish commissions I've been struggling to finish because of home life. We only have one car (that we're having to pay off a huge loan that we borrowed to pay the probate lawyer) and we don't trust daycare or strangers to watch our kids nor could we even afford it if we wanted to.

Everything of mine has been pawned for past instances when we needed money for food.

I see people whose art is a lot worse than mine but they get paid more. I'm sorry I'm slow with my art. I'm a MOM!!! I don't have 40+ hours to spend on art, but it's all I know how to do to bring in money for my family. People want their commissions to look good? I have to spend TIME on them. During the time I'm working on it, I'm up and down like a jack in the box taking care of my kids, tending to my husband, tending to our 5 cats and 2 dogs, the cooking and the cleaning....THE MOTHER! FUCKING! CLEANING!!!

It's pointless for me to vent...I'll just shut up.