The worst part of breaking up with someone is NOT the break up itself...
It's the loneliness, desolation, rejection, and hopelessness that follows it that's the true tragedy in all this...
In other words... my depression is worsening again.
And here, I make a confession... Winter's Gallows... isn't something I write on a whim. It never was. Every time I feel down or depressed, I work on it.
Therefore when there were huge gaps between me working on it, I felt not like shit!
Every day I made progress in it since October 2015 was a day I was simply... unhealthy in the mind...
So is it a good thing it took me this long to make this much progress?
...Or a bad thing that I made any progress at all...?
But what happened... has left me so distraught and utterly lost, that I... just don't want to do anything anymore. I don't want to write, I barely want to talk to anyone, even though I know I really, really need some consultation from friends. I feel depressed every time I browse these sites and they aren't making me feel any better.
It doesn't matter that this was the easiest split. What matters is that it was the NINTH one, after a year in a relationship. And that all that time is gone forever. If this cycle continues, I am becoming more and more convinced I'll be alone forever---
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I'm sorry guys. I did not want to pour all that out like that... I said that it was pointless telling you all how I feel. And I still believe that.
Hence why Klaus represents my reticence...
I just wanted to let you know that
TLDR-- My mental health is getting worse every day.
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