For a while now I've been alone mostly. Family was splintered around the time I went to college but before then my actual family didn't do much for thanks giving. I would go to my best friends family for thanksgiving through most of high school and college. They were my second family essentially. Now I've gotten older and moved far away from family. I just get thanksgiving off so I can't really go home. Each year I think I feel the most lonely on this day. This year its hit me harder than most. I've been crying on and off all day. I had my roommate try to take me along with him to one of his local friends families but the person didn't seem to enthused to have me tag along. I'd rather be alone then be a burden or be somewhere I probably am not wanted.
While I mostly dwell on the bad things when alone especially on a day about togetherness its not all bad. I have a job and can sustain myself. Some people don't even have that. My life could be much worse afterall but today always hurts.
Hell I might deleted this journal after a few days being a bit embarrassed about it. I just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere.
Anyways Happy Thanksgiving to all and be thankful for what you have because it could be much worse.
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25 Nov 2016 03:30 CET
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