Recently I had a discussion with a friend about relationships and how they affect me
He had last month his second child with his wife and was a bit concerned that I don´t have a girl/boyfriend to start a family of my own
As much as that moved me I was also a bit reluctant about it
I realized that I will never be a good boyfriend to a mate I realized that several years ago actually
All my life (even as a child) I was a lone wolf sure I socialized like a normal person but I also needed time only for me
It wasn´t uncommon that I just vanished for a couple hours to be just alone
I cherished these moments and I still do
I have my occasional fling with a man/girl and I enjoy the cuddling (and more) but I just can´t see me in a steady relationship
Part of this is probably that I just never learned to life in such relationships (divorced parents without really every meeting my Dad until I was 14)
Well that discussion was nice but in the end I had to tell my friend that I will probably never will have a wife and children of my own because of it
(doesn´t mean that I totally dismiss the thought just that at the moment there is just nothing for me I that direction )
On one paw it saddens me on the other paw I find it comforting
yeah I suck at relationships
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17 Oct 2016 17:35 CEST
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