I can't draw
I can't draw
I can't draw
I can't draw
I can't draw
I can't draw
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try drunk
I try sober
I try drugs
I try medications
I try to force myself to draw
I try push myself to draw
I try to draw
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
I try
nothing
nothing comes out
I grab the pencil, move it across the paper, I try to draw something, I WANT to draw something.
I WANT to draw something.
I NEED to draw something.
Nothing comes out!
Nothing good comes out!
Nothing worth anything comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing comes out!
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
I can't draw nothing
I draw nothing
I am nothing!
There is nothing!
There is nothing other than drawing!
There is nothing in my life more important than drawing
There is nothing in my life other than drawing
There is nothing in my life besides drawing
There is nothing in my life
There is nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
No-Thing
No Thing
no thing
I'm no thing
I'm nothing
I'm nothing!
I'm dry
I'm dead
I'm flat
I'm nothing
I can't draw
The ideas are in my head
But between the head and the hand there is something missing
I'm missing
The stories are in my head
I can't draw them
I'm not good at drawing
I'm not even bad at drawing
I'm not drawing!
I want to be drawing
I need to be drawing
Drawing is my life
I can't draw
I can't live
I'm not alive
I'm not
I'm nothing
There is nothing!
I'm uninspired
I'm dry
I'm dead
I lost the touch
I lost the knack
I lost whatever I had
I lost it
It lost me
I lost me
I lost
lost
lost
lost
lost
lost
lost
(Where the fuck am I?)
lost
lost
lost
lost
lost
lost
aaaaaand no...
It's not a fucking poem
It's my thoughts right now because I can't draw
I don't have it in me anymore.
And the things is that drawing is what makes me. Without drawing there is no me. There is nothing else in me other than the drawing part and that part is now dry, limp, broken, dead....
I'm dead
Worse than dead, because death is supposed to be the end, no more pain, no more suck... but I'm still here. The pain is still here. And I can't draw!
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