Do you know why this keeps happening? Because I'm physically handicapped, I literally can't work and above that I have no car...so every month I have to struggle to pay this damn cable bill a few days earlier than I can get my check which complicates EVERYTHING.
I have no phone which means no 4G so when my internet goes out I can't get online to pay it or call them which defeats the purpose. Everyday I am waking up with a weight on my chest and a lump in my throat wondering if I am going to make payment because now the internet is the only source of communication I have to anyone, I HATE borrowing money and I hate even asking but I'm not an artist, I tried commissions and still trying to work on shit I owe but I dont have the motivation to be an artist. At least not as a job because I'm not that good and no one seems to give much a shit about bases or base adopts unless someone popular or whatever is slapping them out.
I am just so stressed..bills are coming up and my dogs havent eaten in a couple days but I'm sharing some of my food with them and even running out of that..this is fucking ridiculous and I feel stupid and useless..
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7 years, 7 months ago
20 Aug 2016 04:52 CEST
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