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VerbMyNoun

Life Got Real [important!!!]

Hello, Everyone;

I'm sorry for the couple of weeks since my last post, and for any worry or troubles I caused anyone. Long story short, the depression that I have been battling for so long finally caught up with me, and I attempted suicide. I spent a week under observation and had my medication changed up. I am home and doing as well as can be expected.

My family has been incredibly supportive throughout this entire ordeal, especially my wife, and it makes me realize how foolish I was to ever feel like I was alone in this. I am looking at life with a very fresh perspective, and grateful that things worked out the way they did.

I am going to be seeing a psychologist, as well as improving my diet and exercise habits, in an effort to fight this mental illness more proactively. Additionally, I am looking into Buddhism, because of its emphasis on self-awareness and self-control.

My time in the hospital also revealed a potential heart condition. I have a referral set up to see a cardiologist and wear a special heart monitoring device for a month.

What this all boils down to is that the status of my future as a member of the community is unclear at this point. All writing projects are on hold indefinitely. I owe some of you either stories or a refund, and I sincerely do intend to deliver your money back to you as soon as possible, but my own mental health is my number one priority.

Many of my art and stories have been removed from my profile. Many more may follow. As part of mending the bonds with my family, I intend to reveal myself as a furry. However, much of the subject matter may offend them, and I found it best to just get rid of it.

I apologize to everyone for any trouble and inconvenience, and for those that have stuck beside me, thank you for your love, support,  and understanding.
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Added: 8 years, 6 months ago
 
strangetales
8 years, 6 months ago
I'm so sorry to hear what you went through, but glad you are still with us. Please feel free to contact me if you need any thing at all. I'd liek to keep you as a friend even if you don't wanna do furry stuff anymore. As someone who struggles with emotional issues and is looking at various spirituality I'd love to be able to chat with you as you find your peace in that aspect. In terms of stories I totally understand removing what you gotta remove. We're all here for you :) Love ya man
AmaraMcLeod
8 years, 6 months ago
*huggles tightly* I know what you are going through, and you know I am here for you if you need someone to talk to
Neosate
8 years, 6 months ago
We are here for you Verb, and you know who I am talking about.
FoxyFemme
8 years, 6 months ago
Oh hell.... Hey, do what you need to do to get a handle on your life. I've battled severe depression before, and know what that can entail, though mine never got so bad as to involve suicide. *hugs* I don't know you well at all, but I value you as a person and a creative spirit, and I would feel a great loss if we lost you. Take care.

I lost my father to an unexpected suicide. I can tell you first hand that being a family member of someone who dies by suicide is one of the worst things that you can ever go through. No matter how bad things may seem, avoid that course.
FoxyLove
8 years, 6 months ago
I'm sorry that you feel that way and glad that your getting help VMN. But also know that now matter how low you feel, suicide is the pussy way out. You do what you need to get well mentally and physically. Us fans of your work can wait till you feel that your ready to return to it. But know that your friends here and nearby are there to help. Even if it is to talk.
NekoVeil
8 years, 6 months ago
I know how you feel, I have also attempted suicide, after that I realized that I cared too much about other people and need to focus more on myself... not in a selfish way though. I've been using what I've believed and found that I sort of follow a mix of Buddhism and Shintoism... much like the majority of Japan's residence do. I have improved mentally and emotionally, now just to improve physically (I hate my body).

My family have known I'm a furry for years now and they treat me no different.. even with all the sexual stuff. I hope your's are as accepting as mine.

Good luck, I hope you don't leave us in any way! :)
MightBeFurry
8 years, 6 months ago
I am grateful beyond words that you're a survivor, and I offer full support for your decisions and best wishes for your health.
Furlips
8 years, 6 months ago
hugs

Bunners
CCubed
8 years, 6 months ago
Depression is never an easy war to fight, and damn does it take bits of you away as you keep fighting it . . .

Stay strong!
ruink
8 years, 6 months ago
here' to you getting through it, stay strong
rippervtol
8 years, 6 months ago
Depression is always a tough thing to deal with. Stay strong take care of your self, and we hope you are able to stick around I love your work. Leading a double life can be very taxing that I know very well so being open about it could help more than you think and I hope your family and friends will be understanding about it. Best of luck and keep your chin up :D
talon2point0
8 years, 6 months ago
Hey Verb, finally got inport and your in shambles. hang in there buddy! over halfway home by now. as for story commissions don't worry about it for me, you hold on to what I gave you and I'll try to finish VanessaxKyle myself. *snirk* (yeah... at the speed of sloth)

anyway, I miss chatting with all you guys, I'm glad your at a better place mentally it just sux you had to hit the bottom to get there... anyway, thinking about our collabs contently, just hang in there buddy.
-Talon
BlastoTheHanar
8 years, 6 months ago
Hey, I resemble that remark.
talon2point0
8 years, 6 months ago
you are that comment. :/
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