A lot of people don't realize that depression is an illness. I don't wish it on anyone, but if they would know how it feels - I swear they would think twice before they just shrug it. I wish I was strong enough to overcome my sorrow and weakness, so I can face tomorrow. And I hated everyone in my life, everyone and everything, and me most of all. Is there someone out there, who feels just like me?


I am exhausted already; just really tired from the nonsense BS, drama, and depression that occurs around my life. I want to live in peace and harmony. You may seem that I am trying to attract attention - but no. I am only exposing my deep feelings that dwell within me. I am the type of person that holds my feelings inside me, and not exposing any slightest detail or emotion towards others, because it's doesn't concern them, and it's my problem. But they're times that I need someone to talk to, someone who can resolve my issues.


A Friend of mine confronted me and explained to me about depression and this is what he said.
"I've have severe depression but I won't sit there and accept defeat based on that, it's a disease. You don't have to be depressed, working out helps medication therapy, and there are numerous things you can do. I also have dyslexia, and a life long thyroid disease called "graves" if you think your more messed up than I am then by all means be depressed but you don't see me sulking around. Put your head up, Randar. "life is beautiful" if you need help, 211 are there and they can set you up with Dr Appointments and you not alone, almost everyone we work with has depression, so cheer up and I am not shrugging it off."


After his speech, I thought about his words, the disease that has inflicted upon him, and feel I bad for him, and also, he's in more pain then I am. I understand the position he's in, and it's brutal and yet, he's determined to stay positive and be happy with his life. Another thing I thought about; life. Yes, life is wonderful. Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once. Think about it. You can always make the change and spend it like that. Gotta look at the positive side.


Then it hit me hard. Maybe happiness is an attitude of mind, born of the simple determination to be happy under all outward circumstances. That's what I think. I am sure others would agree, right? Like I mean, when you tell yourself to stay happy and remain positive through all the situations and shrug off those you cannot control, you'll find that you give off a good vibe to those around you and actually ARE happy.


I am sure other experience depression, but I realize that just be happy with your life and all and stay positive. Just be happy. It's one way of being wise.

Determination