It's getting close to the midway point of this year. Even though I should be happy that it's be summer soon, it's still the same old routine of no job deal. I'm pretty sure that you've heard it enough that I've become a mindless zombie shouting "JOB" all day so I'll continue on. For the past couple of weeks visiting back at my apartment with Blaze and the others really did help me out from the boring and dull spot at my sister's. I'm also happy at the fact that we have new and awesome games like Kinect Adventures, Dance Masters, Portal 2, and the new Mortal Kombat. Each game rocked one right after the other.
I've also took my hand at drawing. Tell you the truth, the crash courses were my third and fourth time actually trying to draw something. The first two were just on paper half way done. I really do enjoy drawing on the tablet after watching
draw. For the basics of drawing, I'm more into the whole Sonic-style genre. At the same time, I'm not going to ignore Anthro style anytime soon in which both styles are going to need practice. My only concern is back at home with my family. It's the only place to actually concentrate and not worry about anything. But I lack the equipment needed to actually chase after said goals
This was suppose to be my chance to get back into the groove again, and once again nothing. It really frustrates me not finding anything anywhere and still having to wait for this "shoe-in" job to come through. My only final theory is that come summer time when school is out, they might be looking for new hires. But with my luck, I highly doubt it. However, if it does pull through, it will be worth the sacrifice of going to AC this year. I'm glad that I was able to still make new friends through random streams and chats these past few months.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm royally stuck at absolute zero. At home or at my apartment, I have nothing to provide, or make better of myself earning wise. I know my mate, family and friends want to help me out as best they can. But I feel like I should earn these things myself instead of having them thrown on my lap. Right now my Mom wants to help me with renewing my driver's license. Even though that would be a positive boost, my mind is still having doubt on how things a playing at this point. I guess part of that doubt is not having the power to control anything either. Where to go, shop, drive, visit someone, buy stuff, plan a vacation. I'm completely at the mercy of everyone else and even though it's all mainly positive, there's still a possibility that even that could go wrong.