69 Questions journal...
1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
yes I could... as long as I can still smoke a pipe once in a while
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
heartbroken, divorced for 13 years, and confused as to why I cannot find someone
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
I would expect the next word out of your mouth to be "Ugly".
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
no. my ex-wife said "it's not me, it's you. your an asshole." and that was on the divorce papers >.<
5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
I am interested in ANY ONE right now... (desperation much?)
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
I'm not looking forward to anything... but next week I figure I'll be putting in at Least 3500 miles, getting stuck in traffic and construction, dispatch waiting until the last possible moment to send me infor for a load that was supposed to pickup BEFORE they sent me the info, not being able to find parking, not being able to find a bathroom when I need it, not being allowed to merge...
in other words, the same fucking bullshit I deal with EVERY week...
7: Do you want to be single?
NO!
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
I am ALWAYS out. I want to go home
9: How late did you stay up last night?
drove until about 1:30am because the east coast FUCKING SUCKS >.<
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
no...
11: Last three things you had to drink?
mocha capa frapa rappa chino latte espresso mocha... thingy.
sugar free Gatorade
diet coke with Splenda
12: Have you ever pretended to like someone?
no.
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
no.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
no :cry:
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yes. it's been over 13 years and I am still not over my ex... because there has been no one since her :cry:
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
I can think back 13 YEARS and I was still single :cry:
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
it's 9:37 am... so 12:30pm has not happened yet... but I already know I'll be driving
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
no
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
yes I could, but I would rather have the option
20: What would you name your future daughter?
nothing. I do not want a "future" daughter.. I want MY daughter BACK :cry:
21: Do you miss anyone?
yes, but my aim is improving.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
no, but I Am willing to try!
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
no
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
no... which is why every one thinks I am always depressed... because I am.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
no. I get loud when I get mad.
26: Who did you last see in person?
the coffee lady, she gave me coffee... in person...
27: Are you listening to music right now?
no
28: What is something you currently want right now?
someone to love and to love me :cry:
29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Occupied!" I was in the bathroom...
30: How is your heart lately?
literally or figuratively? literally it's functional... figuratively it's fucking broke.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
infrequently
32: Are you wearing socks?
only when it's below freezing out.
33: What do people call you?
assholes, mother fuckers, stupid fucking morons, and "LEARN TO DRIVE YOU COCK BITING FUCKTARD!"
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
no. I don;t like anyone. but I end up talking to a bunch of people... work related.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
my life IS a stressful situation.
36: Who did you last share a bed with?
my brothers dog China
37: Did you do something bad today?
yeah, living... I'm rather bad at this whole "Life" thing...
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
more than 13 years ago
39: Do you get stressed out easily?
a lot, yes. easily? stress isn't "easy". if it was easy, it wouldn't be stressful
40: Will you sing today?
no
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
yes. I wanna tell all those fucking four-wheelers to learn to fucking drive
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
I don't "go" to anyone. I call my brother because no one else answers my calls anymore.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
no
44: What are you listening to right now?
this is the second time you have asked the same question. NO.
45: What is wrong with you right now?
now there is a list with no end to it... how much time do you have?
46: What is on your wrists right now?
Swiss Legend Neptune in dark grey.
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
I'm not wearing one right now.
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
depends on my mood.
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
no. 11:11 is code for First Come First Serve in my company... and I only WISH that when dispatch tell me it that they are actually right for a change.
50: Are you a good artist?
no
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
how the fuck would I know? the only time I ever loved someone I got fucking hurt soo bad I still have not recovered from it, and it's been over a decade...
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
no, because six months ago it was the exact same as right the fuck now.
53: Ever been on a golf cart?
yes
54: Do you have trust issues?
yes, every time I trust someone, I get fucked over >.<
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
no.
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
used to could. but I have not been in a mall since I was happily married... about 15 years ago
57: Do you use chap stick?
only when I need to.
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
no, but I have wanted to
59: Do you have a little sister?
no
60: Have you ever been to New York?
too many fucking times... and even ONCE is too many fucking times >.<
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
at the time, yes... she still divorced me :cry:
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
no
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
driving
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
yes, my ex-wife.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
no.
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
it's been over 13 years... I cannot remember the last three kisses I got
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
it's been over 13 years... I cannot remember the last three kisses I got
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I would MUCH rather sleep with someone. I've been sleeping alone for over 13 years and I Fucking Hate It >.<
69: Will next Friday be a good one?
no, it'll be like ever other Friday. either I'll be working, waiting to work, Wanting to work... or I MIGHT actually be home for a little bit.
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