My RP daughter of at least a couple years had like most internet relationships do, grew less and less as our lives started to pick up. Oddly on this one day where she could have talked to me for the longest time messaged me after a year to tell me my ex is getting out of juvie.
Back a few notches:
My ex first of all did not go to juvie for anything bad like murder or rape or quite frankly anything serious. He broke probation because he smoked weed, yes it was stupid but that's who he is. He did a few stupid things to get on probation yes but he is a good kid, just misunderstood.
Confession: I hate admitting this and I hate that I let it happen when I sat in my mothers face and yelled at her for the same thing. Our time together was over the internet ( a lot of other things) but he was mentally abusive, liked to control me and my love for him. Threatened suicide all the time but couldn't escape from the hell he was putting himself in by going down the path he was on. You'd think I could easily get him out of my life by removing him and never contacting him again but my heart would not allow such a deed so I stuck around and let my tears stain my cheeks and heart while watching him tell me he loved me after things had calmed down.
I have a wonderful life and am still dealing with the pain of not having my ex in my life anymore and it was great while he was put away, forced to have no contact but now he is coming back and I don't want to fall back into my past and ruin my present. //sigh
5 years, 6 months ago
28 Aug 2013 03:50 CEST