Okay, guess im feeling better now, well that's what my family is telling me. I have started to calm down and tolerate other people. I really have to focus on work now so I'm just gonna get right to it. I cant waste any of my spare time because that time will be for eating and sleeping, the rest is for work so I can maintain what I have. But they still have to remind me of where I used to be. "in this dark place where my soul wasn't safe" You know I cant really take the criticism from them because they are all hypocrites, when I was out there they didnt turn away all the money I gave them, but now that it has stopped they're all like "Oh, you shouldn't resort to such measures for money, you need to get an honest job." It's all bullshit, I used to be somebody feared, and I still am, but now I'm washed up and have to listen to a fat boss who thinks he's better than me. I tolerate him spitting on me when he talks, his rancid coffee breath, and poor hygiene. Who are you fooling? you aren't better than anyone, you just have this power trip because other people's lives are in your hands and you can turn their world upside down if you want. I could bring him down to earth real quick, but I cant because I always need to keep to myself. If I let loose does it make me bad?
5 years, 8 months ago
29 Jul 2013 00:41 CEST