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ShanetheFreestyler

Why does nobody understand?

It's like no one has any actual words of support or sympathy for me, they either forget I have a male body and assume I should be happy with my non-exsistant breasts, or make jokes about it. Nothing pisses me off more than people who think I'm already in the body I should have, I'm not! I hate my body! I hate my small hips, I hate my thick eyebrows, I hate every follicle of hair that is not on the top of my head, and most of all, I hate my flat chest!

Other friends I have, ones who are transgender like me, they're either already taking hormones, or have already completed their transition. As happy as I am for them, I can't be more jealous! Especially one who, well, let's just say she excelled in the part I want to...

The conditions I'm in... it's too restrictive! I'm a girl who must continue pretending to be the guy she appears to be, even when the rest of me is screaming. Nobody will believe I'm a girl because I don't look like one, and I can't dress like one because you don't buy a dress for a guy...
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Added: 5 years, 1 month ago
 
Kainus666
5 years, 1 month ago
you know i always do and always will support you and accept you for who you are not what others see you as *huggles* you're a beautiful and lovely girl
ShanetheFreestyler
5 years, 1 month ago
You're pretty good at making me feel like daddy's little girl. ^-^
rosebuster
5 years, 1 month ago
I understand you hun... I'm sorry to hear how bad you feel with this... *huggles you softly*
ShanetheFreestyler
5 years, 1 month ago
*Hugs back* Yeah. I really wish I had a job at least so I can see a doctor myself.
Tai
Tai
5 years, 1 month ago
Trust me on this one. Don't take any part of your sexuality as a large part of yourself, it should be a minor part.
If you go on bringing it up everywhere instead of just having it one of the many facts about you you are doing it wrong.
That is what defines faggot, if you are trasgendered and not bring it up a whole bunch you aren't.
Its when you cross the faggot line is when bullying starts. You can replace trasgender with gay and the words still click btw.

Also when you do take the hormones be patient it will take some time, but your mind will be a total wreck. Before you do take them ask yourself if you're willing to change the way you think, which is truely what makes you you. As someone with brain damage causing memory loss I will tell you losing one's self is the most scary thing one can experience.

And girls with dicks and a cups are hot, if you can get into an a cup you're already a winner.
ShanetheFreestyler
5 years, 1 month ago
Thanks for the words of warning. Unfortunately, this is why my mom won't take me to a doctor. She fears I'll get beat up as soon as I start transitioning...

That last part really made me laugh! Though, I'd like to be a lot larger than an A-cup. ;P
RallyFox
5 years, 1 month ago
I'm sorry.  
*bunnycuddles*
RallyFox
5 years, 1 month ago
I doubt it will make you feel any better but I had to wait 32 years before I could start my transition.  I know how hard it is to have every fiber of your being scream out that this isn't right. I know it seems like forever right now but there is hope. In a few years,  no one will be able to stop you from being the beautiful woman you are inside.  
ShanetheFreestyler
5 years ago
*Hugs back and nods* I know. And it feels so weird how time passes. Like, it feels like only a few weeks ago it was still winter and Princess Twilight was still just a rumor, but at the same time it feels like the goals I've set have been taking so long to happen that the months seem like years! Very odd how that works.

But at least I know I do have plenty of time still, someone in TG Lounge told me she was in her 40's before she could start! If 26 or 32 years feels like forever, I'd have trouble imagining 40! @.@ Still, it does give me a little perspective on this whole "time" thing and helped me get a stronger grip.
falloutghoul
5 years ago
I may not be able to understand, but I at least support how you feel.
Sashiku
5 years ago
*hugs* I completely understand. I have many friends who are going through this, and I try to be there for them. If you ever want to talk, or just need a friend, please let me know and I'll be here for you. My best friend is in your situation as well. She's a sweet girl who has always been here for me. She too was male at birth, but female on the inside. I would love to talk about it more in depth with you if you want. You too have always been here for me and I thank you. I may not understand fully what you both go through, but I myself have things I deal with like sexuality and relationships. Lets talk some time k? *hugs again*
ShanetheFreestyler
5 years ago
Thanks a lot. I know we don't talk much anymore, but if I can find some time, I'll try to get back in touch.
Sashiku
5 years ago
It's just busy for me, but I'd gladly make time to talk. I do miss talking to you. :D
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