My paw and how helpless it has made me got to me today big time and I broke down into tears over, of all things, not being able to open the zip-lock bag of cat treats.
It is so frustrating being nearly helpless. There are so many things I can't do. I mean, if I didn't have the finger at all, I would be able to do a hundred times more than I can with it, simply because of the intense pain at the slightest pressure on it. It is like having a broken bone that is not set and held immobile. I can't squeeze anything, I can't lift anything, and open anything. And this acute pain when i try to use that hand for more than typing and trackball will break through even the strongest pain medication i have. Even typing, I am using my middle finger and my thumb only on that hand, and I am normally a touch typist. The index finger sticks up like a gentleman's pinky when drinking tea; useless and in the way.
Monday can't come soon enough. I am now almost hoping for hospitalization. Anything to get the rest of this healing going and the pain to stop so that I can go on with my life.
5 years, 4 months ago
06 Jul 2013 08:56 CEST