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I Broke Down Today

My paw and how helpless it has made me got to me today big time and I broke down into tears over, of all things, not being able to open the zip-lock bag of cat treats.  

It is so frustrating being nearly helpless.  There are so many things I can't do.  I mean, if I didn't have the finger at all, I would be able to do a hundred times more than I can with it, simply because of the intense pain at the slightest pressure on it.  It is like having a broken bone that is not set and held immobile.  I can't squeeze anything, I can't lift anything, and open anything.  And this acute pain when i try to use that hand for more than typing and trackball will break through even the strongest pain medication i have.  Even typing, I am using my middle finger and my thumb only on that hand, and I am normally a touch typist.  The index finger sticks up like a gentleman's pinky when drinking tea; useless and in the way.

Monday can't come soon enough.  I am now almost hoping for hospitalization.  Anything to get the rest of this healing going and the pain to stop so that I can go on with my life.
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Added: 5 years, 4 months ago
 
Neos8
5 years, 4 months ago
yeah itll get better i promise
RileyHyena
5 years, 4 months ago
Keep a stiff upper lip and soldier on, be your biggest advocate and you'll never lose. You're mind is stronger than any painkiller don't let the pain win. I walked over 200 blocks in NYC with a boot tearing away at my tendon, I kept thinking if I stop I won't be able to continue because it'll hurt so bad and let me tell you it did; but you know what I had to get back up and keep going cause if I didn't I would disappoint myself. Have faith in your abilities because you are stronger than you think and you need to let your body know you're still in charge; I have faith in you now have faith in yourself and don't give in or give up!
cooncub
5 years, 4 months ago
HUGS, Remember your hand shall heal and you can again do things. Mine both were destroyed from RA and at times I can't feed myself or lift things even turning a door knob can be bad. I got use to one finger typing now but at times feel badly and depressed.
Frynge
5 years, 4 months ago
<clings to the puppy>  I know what you mean, dear... when I was bedridden for a month after The Accident, I had days like that too.  ...missing everyone and just wanting to be able to carry on again.  you will.  hang on!
Hippiemouse
5 years, 4 months ago
*hugs*
Sorry your going thru this man.
I recommend watching a comedy to take your mind off it....as a wise toon rabbit once said..."A laugh can be a very powerful thing...why sometimes in life,its the only weapon we have"
CrackyCrackers
5 years, 4 months ago
I was kind of Fearing this.  Often doctors will just wait and see if your body heals itself.  sometimes they don't do anything because they are told so.  And more than often the insurance does not treat you with what you need or in the time you need,  I can tell you have waited too long hear at least something to comfort you, you have been given pain killers and told to wait certain days with little improvement.  and they have been "appointing" you to see  other people, but often you can't wait for that, that time is enough to cultivate bacteria and horrible pain.  

I tell you this because I almost lost a leg to gangrene  thanks to those very same people I though were right,  and that it was all normal, and I just had to wait, and that I was the one making up the symptoms...  and four months ago I had to have my gallbladder emergency  removed  because the doctor confused the pain with  stomachaches I've had for almost a year ...

I'd like to recommend you to have a good chat to your doctor and that he/she need to get snappy on things. If they cannot cope with such,  I'd recommend a second opinion.  

Best wishes Cracky
foxboyprower
5 years, 4 months ago
*hugs* I hope you recover soon.
Stumpycoon
5 years, 4 months ago
I hope you recover soon and get good news (whatever that is) on Monday.  I'm here if you want to talk too.
MarkoTheRat
5 years, 4 months ago
I'm so sorry, sir. I know you are going through a hard time, but I don't think even hospitalisation would help you get over it more quickly. You will have to endure, but look forward to when you have full functionality again. I'm sure Kupo and Alynna are glad to help you while you're going through this. I wish I was there to help you too. I would take great pride in being your helper rat, always being by your side to be the hand you wish you had. If I'm lucky, you'd even let me wear clothes when we go outside.
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