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yiharbin

Epiphanies and Thaughts....

You know... I find this interesting... In the summer of 2012, I volunteered at a number of places and helped out in a number of things, and there are a few things that I have taken note of and learned, about the world, about people, and about myself...

One thing that I learned is the difference in thinking between American born and foreigners is that, well, many Americans seem to want more and more and more, want to rise in their ranks and be promoted more and more... more money, more material goods... People want to "Change America for the better" or "Rule the world", but foreigners........ Twice have I worked up close with foreigners... Once, when I was helping pick up trash in a near by neighborgood that is a little bit run down... I was put with a group with my mother and two darker-skinned older women. I do not know where they were from, other than it was some island... I struggled to understand what they were saying and it took about half and hour to an hour to really understand and learn how they speak... I gathered that they escaped from somewhere, they are close friends that fled together and came to America, and they are greatful for what they have.... The other time I worked up close with foreigners was when I volunteered and helped new citisens (like officially become citisens... I sat through 4 different ceremonies where they got their certificaes and paperwork and everything) register to vote.... It was amazing the list of places where all these people came from..... People, even families were there... And so many greatful faces and teary eyes and joyful voices... Proud to now be officially American citizens... Nearly all of them looked gretful to be here (with some exceptions... I remember a russian man in a wheel chair that looked like he took a huge hit to his pride... I only know he was russian because when they said Russia (when they read the country, they were supposed to stand up, and he raised his hand when they said russia)... He didn't seem to happy to be there)... It was heartwarming, and sobering in a way... Many people are told to be greatful for wht they have by hearts that themselves do not fully appreciate what they have... I was face to face with people, spoke to people that have came here for new oppertunities, that have escaped from something horrible... It makes you really think... These people renounced citisenship from there homeland, have come to America, have seen things and experienced things you cannot even imagine... We bitch about too much homework and a broken AC and all sorts of things, but..... These are people that have seen their homes burned down, or have lost family, people escaping opression.... people that really view America as a beautiful place, a place of opertunity.

A place of opertunity... That did not mean anything to me before meeting these people... But, where they are from, they don't just lack elected leaders (which doesn't mean much to me. I do not really like elected leaders because something always seems to go weird or go wrong....), they lack clean water, they are opressed, told what to believe and think (worse than people have it here. People claim to be opressed here, and claim they are told what to think and say here in America, but not to the degree that these people have).... It is amazing.... What we Americans sacrifice and concider to be a big deal, and what they had to secrifice....... It is... Incredible....

We Americans are so used to comforts and commododies that we seem to just... accept it, accept that all these luxuries are all there is, and we just want more luxuries and more comododies... but people that dont have ANY luxury see America as a beautiful place as is.... We have so many groups trying to change America, claiming that they are trying to make things better for everyone.... It is... Amazing.



Another subject I would like to talk about is the difference between what is right by heart and what is right by mind... What is right by science, and what is right by morality.... I have volunteered with the national MS society and a few other groups that are doing all sorts of events to raise money to find a cure for whatever illnesses... See, what is right by heart: Cure the illness, help the suffering people... But, BY SCIENCE AND THE NATURAL WORLD... In nature, the sick die off, and the strong survive, and that is how evolution works... the strong live nd make babies, the sick, the weak, they die off and are lost to history.... I believe in nature... Nature was here before man, in nature, everything works together and knows far better than humanity... many times, we have tried to help and things only got worse... in nature, it either is or is not.... Nature knows what it is doing... so I believed that... as horrible as it sounds.... we should not cure diseases like that... we shouldn;t cure cancer, or diabetes, or all these diseases and illnesses.... rather, they should be.. removed.....

That is easy to think and believe when you are watching reality from a distance... But when you meet people face-to-face, when you see people in person.... It is... It is so different... I do not know about you, but I cannot look a cancer patient in the eye and tell them "Tough luck, you have to die".... That is horrible... I do not know what type of heartless monster can do that.... But you see? Science makes sense... Disease exists to limit a species' growth so that they do not grow too big and kill themselves and take all the linked organisms around with them... Food and water and space are the first limiting factors in nature... We carry water with us, have ways of transporting food and water, making food last longer, and we stop building outwards and start building upwards and downwards... then those limiting factors stop limiting us... next comes disease... the black death for example... europe became overcrowded and overpopulated... then, when the plague hit europe (spread by fleas that were on rats from trading ships from China)... The disease spread through the tightly packed groups... many died, but some became immune and lived on... and prospered in the now wide open space.... We modern day humans cure all the diseases, which make it so that our species has no limiting factors anymore.... and our race keeps growing and growing.... until... we hit critical mass as a species and our specied goes under... taking down every linked organism... which is now nearly all of them... we will keep pushing for more space, more resources... and starve out and kill off our surrounding organisms, then our species will colapse.............. Which makes it easy to think about letting diseases just... have their way with what people have the misfortune of having them......... but I dont have the heart, when seeing someone in person........... So, it becomes not so easy to know what you believe.... When you are alone, it is easy to think you know what is better or best... but when you are confronting the world, what you believe i right stops seeming so right..... This is something I have learned about both the world, as well as myself.......  It is easy to critisize others, but in the end... there is no right or wrong, just confused or misguided opinions.... What ealy seperates our presidants from dictators, what really seperates different religious groups... Opinions... Perspectives... Alone, one may believe one thing, but when they are infront of people, few or thousands, they question what is right and what they believe...............



Boys, girls, women, men... Friends, aquaintances... Everyone... My knowledge that I have to pass on, the wisdom I learned and need to share are as follows......

-Never think you know what is right and wrong for anyone... One right may have many unforseen wrongs... Like wanting to shower your childe with gifts and praise and give them everything, hand them everything... Sure, it is nice, but they do not learn how to work and get things for themselves, they can be come spoiled... The love you shower them with has to come with a firm hand to help them, but not give them.....
-Sometimes your heart is wrong, but sometimes your brain does not know what is best... Sometimes something you feel whole-heartedly about is wrong... People that have been in deep relationships may know that... you may think you love someone, but later down the road, you find that it wasn't love or was not meant to last, but you come upon another person who is meant to last, who is meant for you
-Always appreciate what you have, because it may not last and it may be something that people have given there life so that you can have it.... Love... Equality... Freedoms, no matter what they are...
-Don't pretend you fight for something just because you click a button and sit on your ass... There are people out there who get up, stand on there own two feet, raise their fists in the air and TRULY fight for what they believe in... You cannot fight casually... It doesn't matter if you click "like" on facebook, it doesn't matter if you sign an internet petition... What does matter is the changes you make in the lives of others, for better or for worse... You have to stand tall and make yourselves heard
-VOLUNTEER! You never know what you will learn or will find... You can find plenty of places to volunteer... I've prepaired food for the homeless, helped out with plant sales, ran boothes for children (and there are few things more rewarding thn a childs smile and admiration...), I have helped run pit stops for runs and bike-a-thons, I have helped new citisens register to vote, did data entery that determined the funding for an old persons recreational center.... I have worked with the young, the old, the people who have money to spare, the people who don't even have a roof over their heads, the athletes, the ill.... I have met so many interesting people and had so many experiences.... not for money either.... I cannot even begin to express how I feel about this.... It is not for money, it is for people, it is helping out where needed.... It does not matter where, does not matter the group, get get out there and help!









These are my thaughts..... Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope it has at least made you all think a little, at the very least.
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Added: 5 years, 5 months ago
 
MaraschinoBunny
5 years, 5 months ago
I will read all this when I can focus I promins/
yiharbin
5 years, 5 months ago
XD no worries!
this wall of text is less than half of what I had in mind initially when I started typing.... but I figured that this was too much for people to read anyway, so I cut it short a tad ^^;
MaraschinoBunny
5 years, 5 months ago
I will to read it eventually.
yiharbin
5 years, 5 months ago
Now?
MaraschinoBunny
5 years, 5 months ago
"yes I have now...and yes I know I'm worthless and need to die off." shrugs "and yes I use to volentear alot. now I am ill and inured so now I just need to die off.' thumbs up/ :in stead of be cured like man kind was created to be more than an reguler amnal I should just die like one." shrugs "I git this is a do something for others speach but I feal bad enugf without shit like that in my head to I tare myself apart as it is."
yiharbin
5 years, 5 months ago
Hun... that is not how I intended that.......

this is.... that part is more of a clash of philosophies..... just trying to show the difference in what text book knowledge and a computer brain thinks vs what a beating heart and compassion thinks................

Also, just saying, man kind wasn't meant to be better in any way... it just happened to hit a point in its evolution that alowed it to develope faster than any other organism and hit the point we are now...
MaraschinoBunny
5 years, 5 months ago
hmmm then I guess I should be talking about this when I can feel emotions to..... with 800$ and food stamps being all tat keeps me off the streets...and a 600 a moth morgage payment and such....and a bad back and heath that keeps me from doing much its easy to go 'you know your rite I am worthless'.....pluss I had a panefull sort of run in with an ex on here.... a few days ago he wined about how lonely he was here in journals when he abandon me and out mate ship a year ago out of the blue... I pretty much snapped....how dare he not be happier...if he would hae bin I could not be crying uncontrollably till I cant feell only to regane fealing and cry more over it.
yiharbin
5 years, 5 months ago
I'm sorry, hun... *squeezes you tightly*
MaraschinoBunny
5 years, 5 months ago
hugs back "he blocked me so I deleted the journal that told eall my friends to go help him. ....I didnt wana git told by some mod to take it down cuz I named him....its not fair he acts like I never exsist now.....we did love each other....I thought he loved me....I cant help it....I cant stand when people I care about are un happy....evin if I am of no use to them....I'll be fine soon...I just cant look after him any more....and thats so hard I wana sooth him...."
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